in arm across the expanse of snow. It was that twilight hour, when everything is suspended. The snow had the crunch of a freshly created world. Suddenly, unbelievably, from out of nowhere came the smell of violets.
Mythical elements of reality! Archetypal natural settings! We cannot escape them; there is no way out. The emotion at the heart of those twilight winter moments: the lively hush of whirling snow, the nearness of a warm, foreign body. A lyrical drumstroke, when amid the frost and the dwindling light, the scent of spring flickers past like a flying carpet.
The veil of snowflakes parted; a lanky boy stood in front of us in a rather flimsy coat for such a cold winter, a thicket of tangled, rust-colored curls hanging down past his ears.
âHi!â he said to me, and then smiled radiantly. We had never seen each other before. M. pressed me a bit closer to himself.
âSo this is her?â the youth continued, this time to M., but without taking his eyes off me. âThe writer?â
âWhat are you doing here?â Dr. M. replied evasively. He sounded strange: as if he were carrying a tray of delicate, long-stemmed wineglasses, putting one foot carefully in front of the other. âI thought you werenât here. You promised youâd be gone.â
âI was waiting for my tram on Peace Square. I was just about to get on when the Holy Spirit stepped on my foot. So I guess Iâm supposed to be right here. I told you, I let myself be guided.â
âWhat do you mean, on Peace Square? You were supposed to be out in the bush long ago.â
âGuess not, if Iâm here.â
Again he gave me a conspiratorial smile. âHe doesnât believe Iâm guided. Still doesnât want to believe me. Iâm always in the right place. Exactly where he needs me at that very moment. Like those avalanche dogs.â
âLook, weâre in a bit of a hurry.â
We were not in a hurry. All three of us knew that no one was in a hurry. The kid did not have the generosity to let it pass, and gave a grimace of indulgent disbelief.
âHeâs lying,â he pointed out chummily to me, âand he has no reason to. He couldnât even explain why heâs lying. He thinks Iâm his adversary, some sort of antipodean. But heâs the antipodean. Except he doesnât want to admit it. Itâs the anesthesia, I think. Most of the time heâs under anesthesia. Right?â
Ropes of steam, imbued with their own independent lives, flowed from their mouths and twined about each other long after the sound of their words had died away. Dr. M. grew more and more nervous. Through the layers of our sleeves I felt his arm instinctively pulling me away, but his feet stood obstinately still as if this odd conversation would last into the night. The boy suddenly pulled out a crumpled band with a door key hanging from it.
âIâll take your measure.â He glanced at me encouragingly, as if he were promising me some sort of fun. âIâll measure your writer,â he informed Dr. M. âYou know Iâm never wrong.â
It was like a dream. An archetypal setting: the deepening darkness and the deepening whiteness of the snow, the hot clump of violets in the frost, the illusion of isolation on an island, while around its borders anonymous shadows glided past â all of this gave the episode a sort of latent, cryptogamous meaning, a plot invested for future interest. Violets: the boy had a woven sachet of herbs around his bare neck. Snowflakes melted on his rusty curls. He approached me, took my hand unaffectedly, turned it palm up, and started to swing the key above it.
âDonât be afraid,â he said sweetly. âThe Holy Spirit guides me. I donât hurt anyone.â
The key, suspended from between his pinky and thumb, slowly began to sway. Transfixed, I watched the gradually increasing motion, which truly seemed to flow from some source