Judged By You (Judge Me Series) by Patricia Voois

tired and strung out.
    “I’ll see you out then”. What else do you say in this situation? Thanks for the major turn on and leaving me soaking? Fuck I needed an orgasm.
    “I’m sorry, it wasn’t meant to be like this.” He said throwing me an apologetic smile.
    We walked down stairs and to the front door. I held it open and was lost for what to say. So I just thanked him for stopping by. It was out before I could stop it, and it sounded ridiculous.
    “I’m sorry I have to run, I will call you ok?” He said as he walked outside.
    “Okay .” I gave him a small reassuring smile.
    He turned and kissed me on the cheek. “Bye .” He said as he was running to his car.
    Things just went from crazy to crazier. I needed to go to church and ask for forgiveness cause I was about to lose my shit. God help anyone in my path today. I was suddenly shattered. I wanted to sleep all day and not wake up until I had to work. And that is what I did.
     
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    I woke at four that afternoon. I missed a day of lectures, I was so thankful for the sleep. I didn’t even dream. I went to work that afternoon to find out that our cafe was being bought out by another and that I wouldn’t have a job after today. It was a last minute decision the owners made, and we all suffered. The new owners had their own staff and didn’t want to keep any of us. I was disappointed. But lucky I had enough money saved that I could get by for a little while until I found something else. I thought it might be a blessing in disguise because I had exams in less than 4 weeks and I needed to study.
    Once my shift had finished , the owners gave us a check with two weeks’ worth of wages inside and apologised continuously. I bid them farewell and wished them luck on their new adventures. I arrived home and found Nicole sitting out the front.
    “Hey what you doing out here in the cold?” She looked terrible
    “I think I may have stuffed up Savannah.” She spoke so softly. She looked devastated. And ready to ball her eyes out at any moment.
    “What’s goi ng on? You’re scaring me Nicole.” I sat next to her placing my arm around her.
    “I think I’m pregnant .” Nicole said it so quietly I had to lean in to hear. I even asked her to repeat it.
    “I didn’t hear you .” I said in shock.
    “You did hear me. What the fuck am I going to do?” Nicole put her head in her hands and started to cry. Out of everyone I knew she was the strongest. I had no idea what to say to make it any better.
    “What did Stan say?”
    “He doesn’t know yet. I can’t keep it Savannah. My parents would kill me, I’m not married. It was an accident. I forgot to take my pill for a few days and didn’t think anything of it; I have been on the pill for like….. Ten years. And we only had sex once that month , so I thought it was impossible. You know what people say about being on the pill long term.” She wiped the tears from her cheeks as she spoke.
    “You have to think about what Stan wants to. Do you think he will want it?” Surely Stan wouldn’t make her get rid it, he wanted marriage and kids.
    “I don’t know Savannah. I just… I….. I’m scared.” She grabbed my hand, holding it so tight her knuckles went white.
    “I’m here, always. We will work this out. Please, just talk to Stan. He needs to know.” I said giving her a reassuring squeeze with my hand.
    “Okay. So what was with you last night?” Nicole just had to ask.
    And I was actually more than willing to find out what she thought. I explained about Sarah drinks and Damon and that “tramp” as I labelled her. Then him busting in last night, and the fact that I almost had sex with him. Well I wanted to anyway. And then that phone call that shut the whole operation down, and how I felt so trashy afterwards. I have expected money to exchange hands.
    “You go girl, you’ve taken my advice.” Nicole said with a smile
    “Yeah something like that.” I couldn’t help but