socialite. Iâm wondering why Emilio was in Amsterdam, wondering why Marcel was in Amsterdam, wondering why theyâre both here, wondering why these two worlds have overlapped, not just once, but over and over.
âWell, I should go,â Emilio says. âIâve got an early flight tomorrow.â
Panic seizes me, and I search for something to make him stay, something that wonât make Marcel suspicious.
âNice meeting you, Jane.â He nods coolly in my direction, then to Marcel, and is one foot out the door before I manage to find words.
âYou arenât going to stay to say hi to Lucien?â I ask, desperation making me talk too loud.
Emilio glances back, and I catch a flash of accusation in his eyes, there and gone before Iâm even sure Iâve seen it. âYouâll have to do it for me.â
And thereâs that taste again. Oyster. Iâm going to be sick.
âShe canât. Sheâs playing hard to get,â Marcel says. Then to me, âYou know itâs only making him want you more, right?â
Emilio turns, walks out the door and away from me. I clench my teeth and watch him go.
Heâs gone. Iâm alone againâalone with Marcel, a thousand unanswered questions, and a clawed-open heart.
âYou look like hell,â Marcel muses, like this fact is more interesting than unfortunate.
âI have a stomachache.â
âDid I miss something?â He tips his head to the left. âDid Señor Suave say something to upset you before I walked in?â
âYouârethe one who upset me,â I spit. Suddenly every emotion is funneled into my disgust for Marcel. âYou made me sound like a paid escort.â
He snorts. âIâm sorry, youâre not?â
Without warning, my body is moving on its own. I see my two hands on Marcelâs chest, feel the fine wool of tuxedo over wasted muscle before I understand what Iâm doing. Iâm shoving him. As hard as I can, Iâm shoving him backward with all the gumption Jane lacks and all the strength Valentina has, and despite being nearly a foot shorter and fifty pounds lighter, I rock his center of balance and he careens into the wall. I donât wait to see him slide all the way down, but I do hear his glass shatter against the marble floor and a slurred string of curses before I slam the door shut behind me.
I find my way to the main gallery, ducking and weaving into the horde. Iâm frantic. I scan, I spin, I scour, touching every face with my eyes. Emilio has to still be here. But Hugo has drawn a crowd, and theyâre crushing in around me, leaning and leering. Lucienâs probably out here looking for me. I should be careful, but panic is making me stupid; I donât care if Lucien sees me freaking out or if I knock over a whole tray of hors dâoeuvres. I have to find Emilio.
Instead I find parts. Over my shoulder, I see his fluid gait, but then he turns and itâs not him at all. Out of the corner of my eye, there it is, his hair curling softly up at his collar, but when I grab his arm, itâs a startled stranger staring back. His laugh, his jaw, his hands, I find them all, but not together.
And his eyes arenât anywhere. Heâs gone.
The blister on my heel has burst and is bleeding, hopefully not all over Nanetteâs beautiful shoe. And I feel so flushed. My face must have a manic shine to it. I look around for a chair, but apparently the patrons of Les Fontaines arenât meant to sit, because there isnât a single one. Instead, I lean against a pillar, close my eyes, and feel the room sway with wine and money and angry nudes trapped in oil paint.
Emilio was here. He was here and he was beautiful. He said he never got to explain. So explain.
Iâm hot and sweating. Maybe Iâm not just in shock, maybe I have a fever, because for one bleary, pulsing moment I allow myself to doubt what I saw from the closet.