gone flying? An unfortunate accident that could have been prevented if he hadnât gained fifteen pounds?
Who would know heâd been warned to back off and then shoved?
âWendell was at Alessandroâs funeral,â Gordy said.
âI know. I was there, too. Timothy and Faye didnât attend. It was good to see them on Sunday at Claridgeâs. My mother was fond of the Sharpes.â
âIncluding Lucas?â
âYes, including Lucas, and you can go to hell, Gordy.â
âSorry. I know heâs a sore subject.â He didnât even try to sound sincere. âHow long are you staying in Maine?â
âA few weeks. I havenât booked a return flight to London yet.â Claudia stood and came around to the front of the desk, the light catching her eyes, less hot now, more suspicious. âIâm prepared to see Lucas again. Wendell and Timothy and Faye were civil to me in London. I donât know if theyâre aware of the falling-out Lucas and I had.â
âIt was over a year ago. Maybe no one cares anymore.â
âWould that were true.â
âIt wasnât my fault, Claudia.â
She gave a fake laugh. âYou know, Special Agent Wheelock, if you hadnât interfered with my life, I could be Mrs. Lucas Sharpe now.â
âI donât know who should thank me more, you or Lucas.â
âBastard,â Claudia said, almost smiling. âLucas knew I was distracted and under a lot of pressure with my motherâs failing health and then her deathâand I couldnât tell him the truth about you and me, how it was nothing, never meant to be anything for either of us. Oh, Gordy. What we did wasnât just wrong on your end, as an FBI agent, it was wrong on mine, too. I betrayed a man I cared about.â
âDonât be so hard on yourself. You were close to your mother and had a hard time with her illness and death. Youâre only human.â Gordy stepped closer to her, realizing he felt nothing anymoreâno urge to touch her, kiss her, make love to her. He attempted a smile. âI was still quite the stud when you fell for me.â
Not so much as a crack of a smile from Claudia. âI didnât fall for you.â
He gave up on trying to make her feel better about the past. Not his call how she felt, how she rationalized their behavior, whether she forgave herself...forgave him. None of that was why he was here. Heâd consulted with her in an effort to better understand the antiquities trade, both legitimate and illegal, but also because he was convinced she could lead him to some serious bad guys. He was still convinced his professional instincts had been on target, but his personal instinctsâhis personal integrityâhad led him astray, and Claudia, too.
âNothing is ever simple and straightforward with you, Gordy,â she said, calmer now, her tone almost reflective. âIt was stupid of me to call you. It was like lighting dry kindling. You were waiting for something to get you back in FBI mode. How long did it take you to book a flight to London?â
He grinned. âTwo seconds.â
âSee? Stupid of me to call. I tried to tell myself I was just an old friend from your FBI days, but I got you all fired up. You couldnât resist. You had to check to see if I was getting myself in trouble.â
Gordy stood over her. âAre you?â
âNo.â Spots of bright color appeared high in her translucent cheeks. âI havenât had any trouble since you retired. Thatâs cause and effect, donât you think?â
The sarcasm and heat were back, but Gordy didnât respond. He checked out three pottery bowls, each on its own shelf, as if they were too valuable, too precious, to brush against anything else. He was surprised by their reasonable price. They werenât much more expensive than what heâd pay for new ones at Pottery Barn or Crate & Barrel.