and especially Mr. Kile?â He was my favorite teacher.
âBut how will I know where you are?â
âIâll write as soon as itâs decided. Oh, before I forget, I left my school and library books on the kitchen table in the trailer. Mama Arlene knows. Would you go by and get them and return them for me, please?â
âSure. I canât believe this.â
âImagine how I feel. You know I hate Archie Marlin,â I said. The operator interrupted to say I needed to put in more change, but all I had left was a nickel. âGood-bye, Alice. Thanks for being my best friend.â
âMelody!â she called as if I were drifting away like a ghost.
The connection went dead. I stood there holding the mute receiver, afraid to turn and show the motel manager my tears. I took a deep breath, wiped my face with the back of my hand, and cradled the receiver.
âReally raining out there,â the manager commented.
âYes.â
âYou folks come far?â
âSewell.â
âNot that far.â
I started away.
âYou forgot your can of tonic,â he said nodding toward the can I had left on the shelf by the telephone.
âOh, thanks.â I went back for it and then paused on the way to the door again. âAre you all booked up here tonight?â
âBooked up?â He laughed silently, his shoulders shaking. âHardly.â
âI thought so,â I muttered to myself and left.
When I returned to the room, I found Mommy and Archie dancing to music on the radio. Mommy looked embarrassed for a moment, then smiled. âRichard can make even the dreariest situations happy.â
âHereâs your tonic water.â I thrust the can at him.
âThanks, princess,â Archie said. âAny change?â
I handed him the nickel.
âI needed to call Alice to tell her to get my books,â I said. âWe owe you ninety-five cents.â
âPlus interest,â he said winking at Mommy. Then he snapped open the can and poured some into his glass and Mommyâs.
âThere are other empty rooms,â I declared.
Archie paused with a surprised look painted on his crimson face. âThere are? Thatâs not what baldy in the office told me. Well, how do you like that? He just wanted to get us into a more expensive room, I bet.â
âWouldnât he be better off renting two?â I asked, snorting.
âNaw. This room is more expensive than two,â he asserted.
âWhat difference does it make now?â Mommy said.
âThe difference is Iâm tired.â
âSo go to sleep. Weâll put down the lights for you,â she said and did so. Then she turned the radio low.
Seeing that I had no other choice, I unbuttoned my blouse with my back to them and took it off. Then I kicked off my shoes, slipped out of my skirt and quickly slid under the blanket. It smelled as if it had been stored in a box of mothballs. I kept my back to them, but I knew they continued to dance, drink their gin, and whisper. I prayed to fall asleep quickly, and miraculously, maybe because I was so exhausted, I did.
But later in the night, my eyelids snapped open. I heard a soft moan and a subdued giggle, followed by the sound of bed springs squeaking. They thought I was asleep, so I didnât turn around. I had heard similar sounds before through the thin walls of our trailer. I knew what they meant then and I knew what they meant now.
How could Mommy let another man put his hands on her and be so intimate with her so soon after Daddyâs death? I wondered. Didnât she still see Daddy in her mind, hear his voice, remember his lips on hers? Archie Marlin was so different from Daddy, too. He was a weakling. Couldnât Mommy wait until she met someone with whom she was really in love?
She was just confused, frustrated, afraid to be alone, Itold myself. Maybe it would all change when we found another place to live and she