Mia's Spanking Diary by Kris Cook Page A

were
done here, would I lose him for good? Probably. Tears stung the back of my
eyes. I screamed inside my head to tell him how I felt, what I feared. But my
screams went unheeded. I couldn’t find my voice to tell him everything—or
anything. Plus, I was afraid of what he might answer. Once again I looked at
Lex, the man who had shown me so much and captured all of my heart.
    My eyes brimmed with tears, but thankfully my voice remained
steady. “Yes. Your personal life isn’t important for my thesis.”
    His fists came down on the desk with a bang, taking me
aback. “You’re pissing me off.”
    “What? Why?” What had I done to get him so angry? I was
angry, too. At least a part of me felt that way. I was also devastated and
brokenhearted. And more. But that wasn’t what he wanted to hear from me. I closed
my laptop, hoping that would please him. “This better?”
    “That’s enough!” He came around the table and grabbed me by
the shoulders. “I’m not putting up with this crap from you, sub. Do you
understand?”
    “N-Noo, Sir. I-I don’t understand.” Logic failed me. I’d
done something wrong, but what? What could I say that he wanted to hear? “You
don’t want to do the interview? Then we won’t do it, Lex.”
    He lifted me off the chair. He sat and pulled me over his
lap. It took him less than a second to jerk my slacks down. “Fucking panties.
Did I not text you today and tell you that you’re not allowed to wear panties?”
    I’d ignored his instructions, thinking there was no lesson
or scene tonight with him. “Y-Yes, but—”
    “Quiet.” Lex didn’t pull my panties down but instead ripped
them to shreds with his bare hands. “You told me you trusted me, sub. Was that
a lie?”
    I’d never seen him so angry, and it frightened me. “I’m
mixed up, Sir. I-I...things aren’t...”
    Whack! Whack! Whack!
    The strike of his hand to my ass stung more than ever
before. Unlike his previous spankings, this was real punishment.
    “Did. You. Lie. To. Me?” Lex’s indignant tone made me
tremble.
    My voice seemed to be paralyzed. The pain of his hand to my
ass was unpleasant, but not even close to the pain I felt for displeasing him.
    What could I say that would make him okay with me? I meant
it when I said before that I trusted him, but now, I wasn’t so sure. I wanted
to, but this was clearly the final goodbye. That would leave me destroyed and
lost. So I remained silent.
    Whack! Whack! Whack! Whack! Whack!
    Each smack brought my shame to the forefront of my mind.
Tears streaked down my face. I wouldn’t be able to sit comfortably for some
time after this, but I didn’t care. I deserved his wrath, all of it. He’d done nothing
wrong. I was the one who’d led with my heart into our scenes together, not him.
There’d been no promises from Lex. I’d let myself fall when he’d only done what
he’d promised. He’d been my teacher, opening me up to my true self. Nothing
more.
    Whack! Whack! Whack!
    He stopped spanking me and changed my punishment to painful
pinches to my ass. I sobbed and sobbed. The truth...he deserved to hear all of
it, no matter if he hated me for it.
    The torture stopped abruptly.
    Lex stood up, hoisting me to my feet. My slacks pooled
around my ankles as I covered my face with my hands, unable to bear looking at
him.
    “Look at me, little sub.” His voice was softer than earlier.
    I obeyed, lowering my hands even though I knew my eyes were
swollen and puffy.
    He glared at me. “Answer me, not with what you want me to
hear, but the actual truth. Now.”
    “Y-Yes, Sir.” As more tears fell from my own eyes, I was
finally clear about how I really felt about him, and I found the courage to say
it. “I-I do trust you, Lex. I really do. But I was afraid to be open and honest
with you today.” Each syllable I uttered tore my heart apart, but holding back
from him wasn’t possible. Not now. Not after all he’d done for me. “You’ve
helped me discover so much, and