Mia's Spanking Diary by Kris Cook Page B

not just about my paper, but about me. I know I
shouldn’t want more from you, but God help me, I do. It’s not fair to you. You
made no promises to me. And it’s my mistake that I’ve surrendered not just my
body but also my mind, my dreams...m-my...very life. I-I’m...to blame...for...”
    I couldn’t go on and once again placed my face in my hands.
    Lex lifted me up in his arms and squeezed me against his
chest. I whimpered until no more tears fell.
    “It’s okay, sweetheart. I’m here.”
    I rubbed his chest and looked into his eyes, “For how long?”
    “That’s my girl.” He pressed his forehead against mine and
stared directly into my eyes. “Don’t ever hold back from me again.” He kissed
me, and I gasped a little moan of surrender into his mouth. “You can always
tell me what you’re most afraid of. But hold back again and I’ll have to punish
you. Neither one of us wants that. Right?”
    I shook my head.
    “Now, let me tell you my truth. I went to my first club with
some buddies my senior year in college. We all had a blast, but I found a life.
It was like the blinders were off, and I knew myself for the first time.”
    “Lex, I—”
    “Shh. Let me finish. I’ve been looking for you ever since
that first night all those years ago. The moment I saw you at the lecture hall I
felt the connection. Hell, more than that. Sure, I’m an experienced Dom and
have trained my share of subs, but none of them are like you. This isn’t some
pain-trip for you like so many who use the life to repair some hurt from the
past. Not a bad thing, I suppose, but not the kind of sub I want by my side.
You’re what I need, baby. I get you. Your very nature is to please and to
surrender. Mine is to control. I can’t deny that. And I fucking crave your
total trust.” He kissed me again, and my toes curled.
    I loved how open he was being, but wasn’t sure how anything
could change. I might garner another night or two with him, but goodbye seemed
to be inevitable. “Lex?”
    “Quiet, little sub. I’m not done.” He squeezed me again, and
I melted against his hard frame. “Ask any real Dom what gets him off, and he’ll
tell you it’s when he and his sub are in perfect sync, on every level. I know
you, Mia. I feel you. We’re on the same page, right?”
    I nodded, recalling my time with him as my cop, as my
dungeon master, and as my professor. Even now, I felt totally in tune with him.
My heart filled up with happiness, but just as fast, it began to drain away.
Did he want me only for play as a supposed super sub? Was that all I was to
him? What if he couldn’t commit, couldn’t love? If not, I wouldn’t be able to
bear it.
    “What about love, Lex?” I choked out. “Is that even possible
with you?”
    He was quiet for a moment, but I was no longer afraid. I was
starting to believe. “I wasn’t sure about that for such a long time. Now, I know
what love is. I’m holding love in my arms. I want to share the rest of my life
with you, Mia.”
    Tears rolled down my eyes and I touched his jaw. Joy
exploded inside me like fireworks. He was my dream come to life, my happily
ever after .
    Once again, Lex kissed me. “I love you, my little sub.”
    “I love you, Master. I am yours.”
     
     
     

Jan
7th
     
     
    Mia, I finished reading your diary. I’m so proud of you for
not only telling me about it, but also for trusting me enough to turn it over
to me. Well, I’ve read every word, sweetheart, and I love you even more for it.
    Don’t worry about your thesis any more. I know some terrific
people who will gladly sit down with you and answer any questions you have
about the life. With my help, you’re going to graduate in May, I promise.
    You also mentioned an intruder fantasy you’ve used to help
you masturbate in the past. Because I don’t allow such thing now do, I?
    But guess what, baby? I’m going to the club to get a room
all set up just for you and me to give you that fantasy. I’ll text you