her. I would convince them that Dakota is the best ballerina they have there, that despite her reminders that sheâs not a ballerina yet, she is indispensable to them. The best.
Ballet to Dakota is what hockey is for me, only ten times more so because she actually does it. My school didnât offer hockey as a sport, and when my mom signed me up to play at the local rec center, it was the worst two hours of my life. I learned very quickly that hockey is a sport I can love to watchâand never play. Dakota has been dancing since she was a kid. She started with hip-hop, moved to jazz, and settled on ballet in her teens. Believe it or not, beginning ballet as a teen is a huge disadvantage and in some circles is considered to be too late. But Dakota smashed those assumptions during her first audition at the School of American Ballet. My mom sent her the money to go to the audition for her birthday present. She cried grateful tears and promised my mom that she would do her best to pay her generosity back someday.
My mom didnât want to be paid back, she wanted to see the sweet neighbor girl rise above her circumstances and make something of herself. The day she learned of her acceptance, Dakota came running through the house with her letter waving above her head. She was screaming and jumping and I had to pick her up and flip her small body upside down to get her to stay still. She was so happy. I was so proud. Her school may not be Joffrey, but itâs a highly rated academy and Iâm damned proud of her.
All I want is for her to be happy and for her talent to be recognized. I want to fix this for her, but itâs out of my control. As frustrating as it is, I canât think of one realistic solution to this problem. I should have asked her what else was going on; there has to be more to work with . . .
I file that away for later and shift my focus to Nora. She does look more like a Nora than a Sophia, and luckily Iâm not as bad as Hardin with names. He refuses to call Dakota anything other than Delilah, even to her face. Enough about brooding Hardy.
Hardy.
That makes me laugh. Iâm calling him that next time he calls Dakota âDelilah.â
As I pass a grocery mart, a woman with her hands full of paper bags is staring at me, so I stop laughing at myself and my corny plans to stick it to Hardin. Or Hardy.
I laugh again.
I need more coffee.
Iâm only about a twenty-minute run from Grind, but itâs the opposite direction from my apartment than the park . . .
Coffee is worth it. You can get coffee on nearly every corner here, but not good coffeeâ ugh, deli coffee is the worstâand I need to check if next weekâs schedule is up, anyway. I reverse course to run back toward the coffee shop. I pass the woman carrying the shopping bags again and I watch as one of the sacks slips from her hand. I rush over to help, but Iâm not fast enough and the brown bag tears and cans of food roll onto the sidewalk. She looks so frustrated that it wouldnât be a surprise if she screamed at me just for helping her.
I grab a can of chicken soup before it rolls into the street. Another bag tears and she curses as her vegetables tumble to the ground. Her dark hair is covering her face, but I would guess sheâs about thirty. Sheâs wearing a loose dress and has a slight bump underneath. She may be pregnantâor she may not be: I know better than to ask.
Two teenage boys cross the street and come our way. For just a moment, I believe they may actually help us.
Nope. While weâre scrambling to clean up her grocery disaster, they donât bat an eye in our direction. No neighborly assistance; they just pick up their boots and are nice enough to step over a box of rice directly in their path. Sometimes not crushing things in your way is as much kindness as you can get in this city.
âDo you live far from here?â I ask the woman.
She looks up
J. D Rawden, Patrick Griffith