conclusion of their own.
On the screen, Paul coughed, but Marthaâs expression didnât change. She stared directly into the camera. It was like peering right into her eyes.
âDannyâ¦â she said, then stopped.
âGo on,â said the interviewer encouragingly, but Martha shook her head.
âIt doesnât matter. If Dannyâs watching this, heâll know exactly what he needs to do.â
13
then
Six weeks later Paul turned up on our doorstep, Alice bundled in a blanket, asleep in his arms, a carrier bag hanging from his elbow. It was gone nine on a Friday night but he was still in his work suit, the jacket crumpled from clutching his daughter.
âHi, Hannah.â His smile was warm, but the strain in his face was obvious. âListen, could you get your dad? I need to ask you both a favour.â
I turned to go upstairs, but found Dad standing right behind me, fixing Paul with a stony glare.
âWhat is it?â Dad asked, his tone abrupt.
I felt like kicking him for being so rude, but Paul acted as if he hadnât noticed, though I could hardly imagine how. Dadâs expression was as cold as his question.
âI wondered if youâd mind having Alice for the night?â Paul asked.
âWhy?â said Dad. âWhatâs going on?â
Paul sighed, shifting Aliceâs weight in his arms. âIâm really sorry, David. You know I wouldnât ask if we werenât desperate. Can I come in for a moment?â
Dad hesitated for a second or two, then stepped back from the door to let Paul through.
âBring Ally upstairs,â I said, not even glancing at Dad for permission. âShe can sleep in my bed.â
Paul smiled at me gratefully and Dad had the sense not to object. How could he, given how often Iâd stayed over at Dial House? I followed Paul up to my room, pulling back the duvet. Alice didnât even stir as he rolled her onto the bed, her face sinking into my pillow. Paul handed me the bag stuffed with various toys and books.
It was only as I trailed him back down to the kitchen that I started to feel really anxious. What had happened? I wanted to ask.
But I didnât have to.
âAre you going to tell us whatâs going on?â Dadâs tone was borderline aggressive. I stared at his face, dark with stubble. Compared to Paul, he looked untidy, wild even.
Paul sighed and ran his hand across his scalp. âItâs Martha,â he said. âSheâs a bit upset.â
By a bit, I knew he meant a lot. Martha never did anything by halves.
âWhy?â I burst out. âWhatâs happened?â
Paul frowned, hesitated. Studied me for a moment before coming to a decision. âI suppose youâre going to find out sooner or later. It may as well be now.â
I sat on the chair next to Dad, a light sweat breaking out all over my skin. I felt hot and clammy, my mouth suddenly dry.
Paul raised both hands up to the back of his head, like someone surrendering. âGod, I donât know how to tell you this.â He exhaled slowly, lowering his arms to his sides. They hung there, defeated.
âTheyâve found a body.â
A gasp like air escaping from a tyre valve. I realized it came from me. No one spoke for ages. I tried to keep breathing but my chest felt stiff and tight. I looked at Dad, saw the agitation on his face, as if he were deciding how to react. Then he turned and reached inside the cupboard, pulling out the bottle of whisky; the one he kept for special occasions â or emergencies.
He nodded at the empty chair in front of Paul, who sat without protest. Dad got a couple of glasses and poured a fingerâs depth into each. Paul downed his in one swallow, wincing slightly, and cleared his throat.
âA fisherman discovered the body in the channel, about ten miles downstream, between Weston and Brean. Itâ¦he was male, young. Janet Reynolds came round to tell us this