traced the arch of her eyebrow, the curve of hercheek, and the swollen pinkness of her lips. âYouâre the kind of woman who deserves everything a man has to give, especially from her first lover.â
âWhy canât you give me your everything?â
âBecause of my past. I canât love, Cami.â
âEveryone can love,â she said.
âNo they canât. You have to trust and believe in life. I donât.â
âBut you were married.â
âRebecca was my buddy. A woman who grew up the way I did.â
âShe didnât believe in love?â
âWe never said the words.â
Camiâs eyes sharpened. Duke knew she understood what he hadnât said. Rebecca had loved him, but heâd never been able to love her. Rebecca, the woman whoâd deserved his love, yet heâd been incapable of giving it to her. Rebecca, who was ten times stronger than this emotional creature, had needed the words heâd never been able to say.
âMaybe I donât want love.â
âOh, you do, Miss Romance Novels At Lunch.â
She moved closer to him, not stopping until her breath brushed his neck. âI want you more.â
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Cami spent the next few days in a wonderful haze, thinking about Duke. At work sheâd started to sharpen her presentation skills in the biweekly meetings to the steering committee by watching Duke in action. More importantly, she began to seeherself as an attractive woman, something sheâd never believed possible.
Gabriella had wanted to give her clothing advice for years, yet Cami had never allowed her. It seemed ridiculous for an ugly duckling to dress like a swan. But no longer. She called her sister and with her help did some online shopping.
She wanted to give Duke something comparable to what heâd unwittingly given herâbelief in herself. Heâd treated her as a respected peer in front of the event team and in his own quiet way brought her to the attention of the board of directors by praising the work sheâd done. But what could she give him?
She surfed the Net before it was time to go home, looking for a pair of skimpy shorts her sister had told her about. She ordered the shorts and returned to her home pageâa search engine.
Absently she typed his name and the words âpolice officerâ in the search engine and waited for it to bring back information on the man she wanted as her lover.
There were three sites that interested her. The first was a newspaper archive she used for a lot of her benchmarking research. The article covering Rebeccaâs death talked about the much-decorated police officer whoâd dedicated his life to protecting the innocent.
Cami felt her heart clench. This man who protected everyone else had no one to protect him. She reread the details Duke had given her that night on the quiet airplane. In black-and-white print theyseemed cold and heartless; but she remembered the raw emotion in his eyes and his raspy voice. She wanted to go to him and give him a hug.
She dried the few tears in the corners of her eyes and moved on to the next set of groupings, which sheâd seen before. These were of Dukeâs parentsâ death when he was two. Cami bookmarked the page and exited the Web. While sheâd had no intention of snooping into his life, now that she had, she understood more about Duke than sheâd thought possible.
This man whoâd been abandoned time and again needed a family. This man whoâd kissed her and set her soul on fire for something she couldnât define, needed her. This man whose background sheâd just spied on stood in the doorway of her office.
âHi, Cami,â he said, his voice brushing over her senses like the secret thrill of wearing naughty panties under a conservative suit.
âHi, yourself.â She blushed. Thank goodness he hadnât arrive two minutes earlier when his life story had flashed across