Benny closed himself into the pissy stink of the Impala. âDaddy doesnât talk or move or anything anymore,â Bo told him.
âShut up,â Jeannie said. She held the manâs face directly to hers. âOpen your eyes, Rex.â
She wasnât careful where she put her hands. Benny wished that she would be more careful, because the way she was holding him must have hurt him. âLook at me, Rex,â she said. When the manâs eyes didnât open, she opened them with her thumbs, but they didnât seem to see her. âRex, damn it! Here I am.â She was whispering.
âHow come you didnât bring Black back?â Bo asked.
âHe wonât come.â
âWe got to get him,â Bo said.
Their mother let the manâs head drop against the glass and lifted her hands. There was blood on them.
âHe wonât come,â Benny said. âHe doesnât want to come.â
âWe got to get him anyway.â
But something was happening outside now. The sheriffâs car had pulled up and a man knocked on their window. He said something about an ambulance not coming today. There had been a bad accident on the interstate and all the ambulances were out. They should follow him. He said the word hospital. So they followed the red lights of the sheriffâs car. After they turned the corner, Bo looked back to see Black running after them in the distance. âWe forgot Black. We got to stop for Black.â They drove and followed the sheriffâs car, until the dog disappeared behind them and Benny had to pin the little boy to his seat.
âForget Black,â he said.
At the hospital, the light was yellow and closed in with pain and hurt people. Benny heard two men talking about the accidentâsomething about cars and a station wagon, ice and danger on the roadsâand everything was too bad, just too bad, they said. An old woman fell over in the hallway. Benny looked around, but nobody explained it to him. People were traveling fast on beds with wheels. He thought maybe he should be looking for someone. A nurse was in his face, telling him and Bo to sit on the floor and stay there. He looked behind him. Two little blond girls were playing with a doll in a corner. They took turns loving it and gave it a beautiful girl nameâa flower nameâLilly or Rose or Violet. They were the only ones that the pain in the hospital did not seem to be calling to. âEverythingâs going to be okay,â they told the doll. Benny resisted the urge of ripping the toy away and making them scream for it. The nurse was still telling him to sit. But when Bo slipped past her, she went after him, and Benny was free to move again.
He moved until a woman seized him. She was crying hard, her eyes sudden and shocking, like broken glass. She embraced Benny until his face hurt, pressing against her bones. A man worked his hands between him and the woman and wrenched them apart. âHeâs not ours,â the man said. âHeâs someone elseâs.â
The nurse came back again, angry. Bo was still loose, and she didnât seem to care about keeping Benny in his seat now. He saw a toy car roll through the crowded feet over the floor and on into the next room. He followed it, wondering when the child who had pushed it would come. He looked around him, but no child came. The car was a bright red color that burned against the white of the walls. It was kicked around until it disappeared in the crowded stomp of feet. He saw two policemen questioning his mother in the far corner. She was crying her soft-evening face off into tissues and dropping it at her feet. The officers said, âThe man in your car was dead on arrival. Can you give us his name? We donât think heâs your husband, lady, and we have to ask you about the goods in your trunk.â Benny reached into his back pocket and felt the soft paper on which the manâs name was