the effect she was having. âHe was a leader. Not born that way, but made that way through his faith. All the credit for his life he gave to God.â Sally looked at him, but saw him not. âIâve never met a strong man who could be so humble. I admired him. I admired him as much as I loved him.â
âAnd you loved him a great deal,â he said softly.
âMore than my own life,â she said, her voice trembling. âMore than . . . More than I thought it was possible to love and lose and survive. But I did. Lose him and survive the loss. For the longest while I didnât think I would. He taught me to see God as somebody alive. That was an incredible gift, his ability to make the unseen seem within reach. And now that heâs gone, I canât find that invisible strength when I need it most.â
âBut youâve made it.â
âIn a way. I almost didnât, though. I almost accepted the fact that this old body would keep right on ticking for another fifty years or so, but the life would be gone. Dead and dried up and blown away.â
âWhat changed your mind?â
âThe children,â she replied simply. âSeeing others who hadnât ever had the chance to live and love at all suffer a hell as bad or worse than my own. It woke me up, Jake. It made me realize that I had a purpose too. It gave a meaning to what was left of my life. But I had to make a choice. I could either drown in my sorrow and watch my soul die, or I couldstruggle back to the surface and survive. Or try to. And I did. But I didnât do it for me. I would never have had the strength to do it for myself. I did it for them.â
She toyed with her cup, her eyes downcast. Jake waited quietly. At that moment, he would have been willing to wait for her all his life, and still count himself lucky. Then she said softly, âIf only I could find my way back to what he taught me about the Invisible, maybe I could count my life as worth living again.â She looked at him. âDo you think it might happen?â
âI donât know,â Jake replied quietly. âIâve never been much of a believing man myself.â
âHe would have liked you, Jakeâ she said, the tender smile returning. âHe used to say that strength wed with wisdom was Godâs most underrated gift.â
âI donât think of myself as particularly strong,â Jake countered. âAnd I donât rank high in wisdom.â
But she chose not to hear. âItâs so easy to talk about God when I think of him,â she mused aloud. âAnd so hard otherwise. I wish I could understand why.â
Chapter Six
The next morning, Servais was ebullient over Jakeâs scheme. âA masterpiece,â he declared. âA stroke of genius.â
âJust trying to feed a few kids,â Jake said.
âNonsense. You wait and see, my friend. This will benefit not only your young charges but us as well.â
âThey donât have a chance in a million of finding treasure, and you know it,â Jake protested.
âI was not speaking of the treasure,â Pierre answered. âNot just, anyway.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âLet us wait and see,â he replied. âCome. This is an important meeting today, and we must not be late.â
The incoming French forces had established an initial base of operations next to the Rhine. The great river began high in the Swiss Alps, ran up through Germany, and ended its twelve-hundred-mile journey off the Dutch coast. It also formed the border between France and Germany from Basel to Karlsruhe, a distance of some one hundred miles. To the west of this border lay the province of Alsace, over which the Germans and French had fought for more than two hundred years. To the east loomed the Black Forest foothills. The river jinked and curved and split and tumbled over drops. The skeletal remains of bombed-out