Right Now (The Seduced Series) by Jackie McMahon

between us.
    “Listen, the sex I can deal with Dennis, but the cuddling and hugging. It throws us… I mean me off. Physically, I want you so much that I don’t think it’s even healthy. I don’t think I can ever refuse you, as you can tell. You said you were my prisoner but in all truth, it’s the other way around. I’m ok with that. I just don’t want it to get emotional, because when it’s all over I will be the one hurting,” she said in a sad tone.
    I was shocked at the d irection this was leading towards. I just don’t understand what she was trying to say me? Didn’t she want to be with me? Was I wrong and she honestly didn’t feel the way I felt about her?
    “Don’t you want to be with me?” I asked.
    “Of course I do, more than anything ,” she murmured. I tried to reach out to her but she backed up against the shower wall shaking her head. “I can’t allow myself to get emotionally attached to you. I’m sorry. I know I’m being an ass when I say it to you but I can’t let myself get hurt again. You’re an amazing guy Dennis, and it would be all too easy for me to fall for you. If I do I’m scared that you’ll end up…”
    “Leaving.” I finished for her. Now I understand, she doubted my feelings and she didn’t trust me enough not to break her heart.
    “Yeah,” she said while looking down. She turned off the water and grabbed a towel. Leaving me stunned in the shower.
    “Did you ever think that I want to be with you too, that I feel the same way about you?” I asked wrapping a towel around myself.
    “Be honest with me, I can take it. There is no future for us?” She said as if she were in pain. “I want to get marry and have kids Dennis. I’m not saying you should throw everything away for me. Honestly, do you see yourself ever settling down?” She asked. All I could do was stare at her. That was a low blow. Did I want to give her those things? Yes of course, but somehow she knew that I would back out or run from her. I was lost. She had me second-guessing myself on what I wanted and needed. “I didn’t think so,” she said sadly as she left the bathroom.
    “Wait! What do you mean by being hurt?” I asked stopping her in the doorway.
    “My heart, I suffered so much heartache in the past. I don’t think I will be able to move on if that happens again,” she said as she left me in the bathroom.
    So it’s like that. I lost her before I even had her. And that’s the story of my life. Something must have happened to her that she didn’t tell me. Why was she so scared of me? I opened up to her and she just shot me down. Great, I have to get ready for work now. Today is going to be a long day.

 
    Chapter Seven
     
    I watched as Dennis sped away in his Lamborghini down the estate’s driveway. Please drive safely I said to myself. He always drove like a maniac but then again fast cars should not be in guy like his reach. Who in the hell goes to work in freaking Lamborghini? One of the richest men alive named Dennis Evers. I don’t like to think about Dennis’s wealth. Material things have never been much of importance to me. The only importance to me is him.
    I said some pretty harsh stuff to him this morning but I only did that to protect him and me. I wish I could turn back the clock. This morning was great. I woke up feeling on top of the world while watching him sleep until the thought settled into my head while I was in the shower. I couldn’t believe he really wanted me like he did. Then I remembered Alana’s words, ‘He may think he loves you now but I know him all too well and trust me sweetie, very soon you will be out of here so fast that your pretty little head will spin.’ She was right, what Dennis felt for me was just lust. Soon he would get over me then what would happen to me? I would be yet another woman that got side swiped by a man who didn’t know what he really wanted. I wasn’t having that. I’ve had my fair share of heartbreaks.
    A week pasted