Spiralling Skywards: Falling (Contradictions #1) by Lesley Jones Page A

whole story, and he never asked.
    We never talked about Luke. We knew keeping what was going on between us from him was wrong, but we both needed a little bit of time to work things out. It was as if we had a silent agreement that there was no point in talking to my brother until we were sure we had something to talk about.
    It hadn’t taken me more than a few days to reach a conclusion.
    Since meeting him, I’d permanently suffered from a serious case of bats in my belly, and I jumped each and every time my phoned buzzed with a text or rang with a call. I couldn’t eat and was sleeping badly. I’d even gone as far as seeing my doctor and going on the pill for the first time in my life. This new influx of hormones was also wreaking havoc with, well everything really. I felt a little overwhelmed and anxious. Apart from Darren the stoner, I’d never been in a relationship. Liam was a thirty year old man with wants and needs, and I was feeling totally out of my depth.
    Sasha found my nervousness hilarious and constantly told me I had it bad, which only added to my anxiety. I was both terrified and excited to even consider the possibility that maybe she was right.
    We’d managed to avoid being together in my brother’s company too often, but I knew we couldn’t keep that up much longer. I was desperately waiting for Liam to suggest we come clean, but he hadn’t mentioned it, and I constantly fought an internal battle of not letting my insecurities get the better of me.
    We’d spent a few nights cosying up at my place, but we knew we were running the risk of being caught by either Will or Luke, who randomly dropped in. It was one Friday night almost a month into our relationship when we finally knew that we would have the place to ourselves. In fact, we didn’t have to worry about Luke or Will for the entire weekend since they had gone to Manchester to watch their beloved Arsenal play football. Tickets were in high demand and because Liam wasn’t a member, they hadn’t been able to get him one.
    Sasha had offered to go and visit her parents for a couple of nights, which meant we would be totally alone. I wasn’t entirely sure how I felt about it. Terrified mainly.
    I held the door open and he stepped inside. Without a word, he kissed me.
    He had a bottle of wine in one hand and a Chinese takeaway in the other. With only his mouth pressed against mine, he walked me backwards and pushed himself against me once I’d hit the wall of my hallway.
    His chest squashed my boobs, his dick was already hard and grinding against my belly, and I felt intoxicated as I breathed in his scent.
    He broke our kiss first and raked his teeth along my jaw all the way to my ear.
    “Fuck I’ve missed you.” His words forced his hot breath into my ear and over my neck.
    “Really? I would never have guessed. I thought that was just a spring roll you had hiding in your jeans”
    I smiled as I spoke against his mouth, which was back on mine,
    “Oh, I’ve got something much bigger and better hiding in my jeans for you, pretty girl. Something so much bigger and better, but first, I need to feed you and fill you with wine.”
    He turned away and headed towards the kitchen.
    We were alone. We would be alone for the entire night. Would he expect sex? Did he want sex? Of course he wanted sex, he was a bloke. Did he want sex with me, though? What if he didn’t? Since that first date when I’d almost come all over his lap, he’d barely touched me. But his kisses, oh, fuck me, his kisses. They turned me into a puddle of lust, want, and need. I was to the stage that I could no longer pull away. If he kissed me the way he just had again tonight, I would undoubtedly give in to my baser needs and ride him like Woody rode Bullseye.
    Ronaldo and Adam had been working overtime of late, because I’d been horny pretty much every day since meeting Liam. All of this had me worried my true nature was about to make an appearance and the whoring ways I’d