they have something or other. Nobody was in therapy when I was a girl. Why canât that boyfriend of hers take care of her? It isnât my problem, Mathilde, and neither is it yours.
There was no other way Jane could be institutionalized. Claudio and Sawyer had explored every option. Sheâd need to commit a crime, said Claudio, who had stayed up late doing research until his eyes felt like they were going to split into fifths, whoâd drank coffee by the pint, feeling like he was doing more dying than living those nights. Commit a crime in order to get committed. Itâs almost funny. Not ha-ha funny, but, you know, uh-oh funny.
Funny, paralleled Sawyer.
Sheâd probably die before the police catch her. It was the type of girl Jane was: always in harmâs way but somehow stealthy enough to escape any authoritiesâas though she repelled them instinctively.
One other thing you have to promise me.
Anything, breathed Claudio.
Noah canât know, said Sawyer. Either.
Wow, um. Claudio swallowed. I mean, are you sure?
Iâm sure he canât know, said Sawyer. Not if we want this to work.
Can I ask why?
It would be worse, said Sawyer, if I asked him to pay for her. I canât do that, you see? Not that he would ever say no. No, the trouble is, he would say yes. And Iâd never be able to pay him back.
Well, I just donât know what to say.
Trust me, said Sawyer, it would be worse if he knew. It had nothing to do with the sting and guilt of his motherâs rejection. It had nothing to do with how hazardously persuasive Claudio was. Sawyer felt as though Noah already did too much for him. This was Sawyerâs decision, and he chose with his Heart. This same Heart of his was sure that neither of their lovers should ever know the truth. This frayed Heart, faulty with reticence, a timid belief that even its most pure love came with conditions.
This makes things harder, said Claudio. I donât want you to lie to your soul mate.
Youâre lying to yours.
But this would be your marriage, argued Claudio, not mine.
Itâs a temporary solution. And besides, I already canât marry the person I want to. I might as well have a selfless marriage if I canât have an authentic one. Now only to wait for the day Sawyerâs mother died or until Sawyerâs real love became recognized by the stateâwhichever came first. Or more likely, whichever came last.
Claudio just had to convince Jane to come to New York, go through with the ceremony, and bide her time until it was time to check in. Then, hope. - Weâll know where she is all the time, - Claudio coddled his mind. Scumbags wouldnât take advantage of her. Sheâd have a clean bed every night. Food with vitamins. Clean water. Half-luxuries.
On the phone, Jane said, Iâm still with Otis . I donât know how happy heâll be.
Can I talk to Otis? Is he there?
Claudio heard a shuffle. god! somebody yelled. And that same somebody said yeah?
Is this Otis?
Whoâs asking? Who was this man, with his pebbly deluge of a voice, with his bewitchment over Jane? Claudio imagined a portly guy with a ponytail, one of those scuzzy alphas girls somehow go gaga over.
This is Janeâs brother, Claudio. Thereâs a man in New York who wants to marry Jane.
Sure, take her. Otis chortled. Why not?
- My god, - thought Claudio, - heâs killing her. - This was possession, as simple as it appeared and yet as intricate as a multiplicity of toxins. Filaments of rage shook loose in Claudio, the marrow of a temper he hadnât felt in years.
Then Claudioâs rationality, so suffered and industrious,arrived. - I canât get angry, - he thought. - For Janeâs safety, I do what needs to be done. Get the information. - It was such a fucking useful notion. He could have cried.
Do you live together out there? he asked.
If by live together you mean for an afternoon here and there, sure. Otis