stay in her room, knew she should pack her suitcase, but she didnât. Going to the door, she opened it and went down the stairs.
It was easy to follow the sound of the typewriter. Michael was in the library, the room dark except for a light over the desk, and he was punching away on an ancient typewriter that looked like something a war correspondent had used during World War II. He typed with his two index fingers, and he typed as though he were furious.
All at once feeling cowardly, Samantha started to leave the room.
âIf you have something to say, say it,â he said without turning toward her.
She blurted her words. âMy granddad Cal was my fatherâs father. He was a wonderful man and I donât believe he wasnât.â
As he turned to look at her, she was surprised to see that he looked tired. Just like her, he had obviously been up all night.
âBelieve what you want,â he said, turning away to pull the paper out of the typewriter and insert another sheet.
âWhy are you typing?â She took a step toward him.
Glancing at her over his shoulder with a look that said sheâd been born without a brain, he said, âBecause I want something typed.â
She motioned toward the manual typewriter. âWhy not just use a stone tablet and a chisel? It would be the same difference.â
He didnât say a word but just kept typing. She should go back to her room and pack, she thought, or maybe take a nap, but for once, she wasnât sleepy. She wanted to ask him what he was typing, but she didnât allow herself to do so.
âI guess Iâll go back to bed,â she said and started toward the door, but stopped. âAre you going to release the money if I donât look for my grandmother?â
âNo,â he said firmly.
Samantha started to protest but didnât. After all, it was her choice as to what she did, and the money wasnât all that important to her. She would do fine without the money because she knew very well that she could support herself. If she didnât fulfill the requirements of her fatherâs will, she could leave New York today and she could go toâ¦She could go toâ¦
She was unable to finish her thought, because she knew she had nowhere to go, no one to go to. Slowly, she started walking toward the stairs.
âYour grandfather Cal was sterile,â Mike said loudly into the silence. âHe had mumps while he was in the serviceâtwo years before he met your grandmotherâand the mumps left him sterile. He couldnât father children.â
Samantha sat down hard on a chair by the doorway. A full circle, she thought. She had traveled full circle. She had lost her grandmother, her mother, her father, her husband, and now she was being told that her grandfather had never been hers to begin with.
She didnât hear Mike move, but he was suddenly standing in front of her. âYou want to go get something to eat and talk about this?â His voice was full of concern.
âNo,â she said softly. All she wanted was to go back to her rooms, rooms where she felt safe.
Grabbing her by the shoulders, Mike pulled her upright to stand in front of him, angry in his belief that her reluctance to go somewhere with him was her continuing conviction that he was half rapist, half murderer. âWhile youâre in this house Iâm responsible for you. Whatever you think of me, I rarely attack women in public places so you can at least have a meal with me.â
Samantha looked surprised. âI didnât meanââ She looked away from him, not wanting to be so close to him, for she had an urge to sink into his arms, knowing that it would be good to be held by another human being. The last person who had touched her, besides this man on the day she had met him, had been her father, and in those last months he had been so very fragile. It would be nice to feel strong, healthy arms about
Dan Bigley, Debra McKinney