aren't on my mind. I have to drink their memory away just to survive the day and to sleep at least once a week. My mind is always on my girls praying that they are alive, and Justin didn’t kill them to hurt me. Was their always evil lurking inside of him, I always tried to be a good big brother to him. I will never forget the first time I brought Ashton home to meet Momma. Justin couldn’t keep his eyes off of Ashton, and my beautiful girl kept saying, “baby he is just a boy with a crush. He will find himself the right woman and never look at me again.” One day he did stop looking, and I thought maybe he had found his own girl.
I wish I had trusted my instincts, Ashton and Taylor were my life. The day Taylor was born a piece of me became all hers, and making sure she was safe and happy. Protecting her from everything I did while serving my country and taking those jobs that were classified, no one could ever find out about. Or everyone and everything I held dear could be ripped from me. I changed my name joined the MC and kept my girls Anonymous from everyone, thinking I could have my happily ever after. Only it wasn’t my enemies or other M.C.’s needed to protect them from. It was my blood brother that was the biggest threat to them all. I will never forget the day I came home from that runs. It was a shipment of parts for extremely rare and expensive bikes.
I walked into the house and knew right away something was not right. Ashton always left the kitchen light on for me so that I wouldn’t stumble on anything. I noticed there were a blanket and pillow on the couch, that was rare, didn’t no motherfucker stay at my house when I wasn’t home. I silently took the hallway to the back of the house and found the notepad we left each other notes on. I picked it up needing to know what was going on. Ours bed was messed up and her clothes were on the chair where she always took them off at night.
Hello my love,
I tried waiting up for you, but I just couldn’t seem to stay awake any longer. I had just laid Taylor down when Justin stopped by claiming he had an argument with your mother and was in need of a place to sleep for the night. I didn't want to call you as I worry about you losing concentration on your runs. I knew with our conversation last night you would be home tonight or in the morning. I figured you and your brother could have your conversation then. I just didn't have the heart to tell him no seeing as he is your brother, and I would do anything for your family. I love you with all of my heart. Make sure you give your daughter a kiss from her daddy before you join me in bed. Please wake me up, I’m looking forward to a welcome home kiss from my man.
With all of my Love,
Ashton
And that is the note that I read and knew that my brother had done something to my Ol’ lady. I dropped our journal and ran for my daughter’s room her crib was also empty. I called my Prez and VP knowing they were exhausted from the runs and begging them to come to my house. I needed help, and I never asked for help for myself. Those knowing that knew that they knew something was terribly wrong. While waiting for my Brothers to show I placed a call to my Momma. I asked her if she knew where Justin could be heading, that is when she broke down in tears and told me what my piece of shit little brother had done to her. When my MC Brothers showed up, I showed them the note and broke down and told them everything from my military background, to my Ol’ lady, and my baby girl, to what my brother had done. Next thing I knew an all bulletin went out to every chapter we were affiliated with, and we called in all of the markers we had. We searched everywhere for two years with no leads; it was like they never even existed. My world was shattered, and it was about to broken once more when I received a phone call from my Momma’s doctor informing me of her medical and emotional well-being. I told my Brothers
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