Tehanu by Ursula K. Le Guin

kept the house. She was no longer needed. It was time she left.
    Yet she could not think of leaving this high ledge, this hawk’s nest, and going down into the lowlands again, the easy farmlands, the windless inlands, shecould not think of that without her heart sinking and darkening. What of the dream she had here, under the small window looking west? What of the dragon who had come to her here?
    The door of the house stood open as usual for light and air. Sparrowhawk was sitting without lamp or firelight on a low seat by the swept hearth. He often sat there. She thought it had been his place when he was a boy here, in his brief apprenticeship with Ogion. It had been her place, winter days, when she had been Ogion’s pupil.
    He looked at her entering, but his eyes had not been on the doorway but beside it to the right, the dark corner behind the door. Ogion’s staff stood there, an oaken stick, heavy, worn smooth at the grip, the height of the man himself. Beside it Therru had set the hazel switch and the alder stick Tenar had cut for them when they were walking to Re Albi.
    Tenar thought—His staff, his wizards staff, yew-wood, Ogion gave it to him—Where is it?—And at the same time, Why have I not thought of that till now?
    It was dark in the house, and seemed stuffy. She was oppressed. She had wished he would stay to talk with her, but now that he sat there she had nothing to say to him, nor he to her.
    “I’ve been thinking,” she said at last, setting straight the four dishes on the oaken sideboard, “that it’s time I was getting back to my farm.”
    He said nothing. Possibly he nodded, but her back was turned.
    She was tired all at once, wanting to go to bed; but he sat there in the front part of the house, and it was not yet entirely dark; she could not undress in front of him. Shame made her angry. She was about to ask him to go out for while when he spoke, clearing his throat, hesitant.
    “The books. Ogion’s books. The Runes and the two Lore-books. Would you be taking them with you?
    “With me?”
    “You were his last student.”
    She came over to the hearth and sat down across from him on Ogion’s three-legged chair.
    “I learned to write the runes of Hardic, but I’ve forgotten most of that, no doubt. He taught me some of the language the dragons speak. Some of that I remember. But nothing else. I didn’t become an adept, a wizard. I got married, you know. Would Ogion have left his books of wisdom to a farmer’s wife?”
    After a pause he said without expression, “Did he not leave them to someone, then?”
    “To you, surely.”
    Sparrowhawk said nothing.
    “You were his last prentice, and his pride, and friend. He never said it, but of course they go to you.
    “What am I to do with them?”
    She stared at him through the dusk. The western window gleamed faint across the room. The dour, relentless, unexplaining rage in his voice roused her own anger.
    “You the Archmage ask me? Why do you make a worse fool of me than I am, Ged?”
    He got up then. His voice shook. “But don’t you—can’t you see—all that is over—is gone!”
    She sat staring, trying to see his face.
    “I have no power, nothing. I gave it—spent it—all I had. To close—So that—So it’s done, done with.”
    She tried to deny what he said, but could not.
    “Like pouring out a little water,” he said, “a cup of water onto the sand. In the dry land. I had to do that. But now I have nothing to drink. And what difference, what difference did it make, does it make, one cup of water in all the desert? Is the desert gone?—Ah! Listen!—It used to whisper that to me from behind the door there: Listen, listen! And I went into the dry land when I was young. And I met it there, I became it, I married my death. It gave me life. Water, the water of life. I was a fountain, a spring, flowing, giving. But the springs don’t run, there. All I had in the end was one cup of water, and I had to pour it out on the sand,