she
wanted.
Instead of answering, she asked, in a mocking tone, "The idea of
spending the night with me makes you the happiest man in the
world, Miraflores boy? I'm asking so you can tell me one of those
cheap, sentimental things you love saying so much."
"Nothing could make me happier," I said, pressing my lips to
hers. "I've been dreaming about it for years, guerrilla fighter."
"How many times will you make love to me?" she continued in
the same mocking tone.
"As many as I can, bad girl. Ten, if my body holds out."
"I'll allow you only two," she said, biting my ear. "Once when we
go to bed, and another when we wake up. And no getting up early. I
need a minimum of eight hours' sleep so I'll never have wrinkles."
She had never been as playful as she was that morning. And I
don't think she ever was again. I didn't remember having seen her
so natural, giving herself up to the moment without posing, without
inventing a role for herself, as she breathed in the warmth of the day
and let herself be penetrated and adored by the light that filtered
through the tops of the weeping willows. She seemed much younger
than she actually was, almost an adolescent and not a woman close
to thirty. We had a ham sandwich with pickles and a glass of wine at
a bistrot in Asnieres, on the banks of the river, and then went to the
Cinematheque on Rue d'Ulm to see Marcel Carne's Les enfants du
paradis, which I had seen but she hadn't. When we came out she
spoke about how young Jean-Louis Barrault and Maria Casares
looked, and how they didn't make movies like that anymore, and she
confessed that she had cried at the end. I suggested we go to my
apartment to rest until it was time for supper, but she refused: going
home now would give me ideas. Instead, the afternoon was so nice
we ought to walk for a while. We went in and out of the galleries
along Rue de Seine and then sat down at an open-air cafe on Rue de
Buci for something cold to drink. I told her I had seen Andre Breton
around there one morning, buying fresh fish. The streets and cafes
were full of people, and the Parisians had those open, pleasant
expressions they wear on the rare days when the weather's nice. I
hadn't felt this happy, optimistic, and hopeful for a long time. Then
the devil raised his tail and I saw the headline in Le Monde, which
the man next to me was reading: A R M Y DESTROYS HEADQUARTERS O F
PERUVIAN G U E R R I L L A S . The subtitle said: "Luis de la Puente and Other
MIR Leaders Killed." I hurried to buy the paper at the stand on the
corner. The byline was Marcel Niedergang, the paper's
correspondent in South America, and there was an inset by Claude
Julien explaining what the Permian MIR was and giving
information about Luis de la Puente and the political situation in
Peru. In August 1965, special forces of the Permian army had
surrounded Mesa Pelada, a hill to the east of the city of
Quillabamba, in the Cuzcan valley of La Convention, and captured
the Illarec ch'aska (morning star) camp, killing a good number of
guerrillas. Luis de la Puente, Paul Escobar, and a handful of their
followers had managed to escape, but the commandos, after a long
pursuit, surrounded and killed them. The article indicated that
military planes had bombed Mesa Pelada, using napalm. The corpses
had not been returned to their families or shown to the press.
According to the official communique, they had been buried in a
secret location to prevent their graves from becoming destinations
for revolutionary pilgrimages. The army showed reporters the
weapons, uniforms, documents, as well as maps and radio
equipment the guerrillas had stored at Mesa Pelada. In this way the
Pachacutec column, one of the rebel focal points of the Permian
revolution, had been wiped out. The army was hopeful that the
Tupac Amaru column, headed by Guillermo Lobaton and also under
siege, would soon fall.
"I don't know why you're making that face, you knew this