real fine. And yerself?â
âCanât complain.â
Heâs looking at the snapshot.
All lined up on the new couch. Bobby with his arm around Brittie on his lap. Angie with her arm around the both a them. Lookitâm smile. Jâever see anythinâ happy as that? Even Brittie, for once. When she started ta talk and she stuttersâ
How should weâve tried ta help fix her? I finish her words when she gets stuck, so she wonât feel dumb orâ¦
He gently tears the photo in two.
Frustrates Angie though. One night she says ta me, âWe should call her somethinâ else, canât even say her own name without that stutter.â
He keeps tearing it into smaller pieces.
And then she goes, âB-b-b-b-b-brit-t-t-t-y.â
âYou quit that.â
âAw, yâre not the boss a me,â she goes. And Iâm thinkinâ, âWhatâs this now? Whatâs all this?â
Angie, she starts ta change. I donât mean about her packinâ on the pounds, not that; I mean that she starts gettinâ all contrary. We could a weathered it out, all of it. After Vistas let me go when money disappeared that timeâand not me, wasnât me, but he wouldnât listen, said, âYâre lucky Iâm not callinâ the cops.â
âCallâm,â I says. âCallâm, you prick, âcause I had nothinâ ta do with it whatsoever! Itâs that Farrah, and you know it, but yâre all too busy tryinâ ta get into her pants!â
After that itâs a little while, not much moreân a month or so before I start up at the Palace Grill, but sheâs at me before Iâm hired âcause Iâm home so much.
âWhere ya want me ta be? Costs money ta be anywhere but here. Watchinâ Oprah is free,â I says, âand I donât see you out lookinâ fer no job.â
Then kids get the mumps and thereâs that big storm and weâre all locked up at each otherâs throats. But we could a weathered all of it out, I think, we couldâve. Yes. Of that, Iâm certain.
Except for she said yes to that kid brother a hers âcause he had nowhere else ta go. Once Kevin comes ta stay with us, thatâs when the worst all got goinâ. âHeâs sweet as can be,â she says after he phones her up. âLoves lookinâ after little kids and that.â I say, âSure. Okay.â I know heâs had a hard time of it, dirty stuff happeninâ toâm when he was a kid and that. I got sympathy for that, I know that stuff really happens, itâs not just the TV.
The moon has disappeared. Heâs holding the photo pieces, staring at them.
But then he shows up.
He slowly starts eating the bits of photo. Taking them like pills, chewing and swallowing them as he talks.
I come home from work and heâs there already, havinâ one a my beers.
The look ofâm!
Tattoos everywhere on his arms and his handsâLove and Hate and the like on his knuckles and all this Chinese nonsenseâbut itâs his face. Spider-Man webs on his cheeks heâs got, and zigzaggy thingsâall black as pitchâand 666 on his forehead like a big asshole. Thatâs real smart. How could he do that to his face? That stuff donât come off. And these hoops in his ears the size a quarters, his ears all stretched out forever. Little spikes in his eyebrows and rings on his lip.
âHe donât give a fuck how he looks,â I say, and she tells me heâs had a hard time and ta be quiet and be patient withâm.
Just a scrawny little runt, canât weigh moreân a hundred and twenty, keel over if ya spit onâm, and always sneakinâ around, pants hanginâ off the tail end of his ass. I keep thinkinâ of how he wasnât too bad-lookinâ once, and now heâs just gone and fucked himself for all time. What kind a job could he ever get? Whoâd