watched it while it steeped. This done, he poured two cupfuls and carried the cups to the bedroom. Thus far, he had been reasonably successful in not thinking about things he didnât want to think about.
âHere you are,â he said.
She carried the cup immediately to her mouth, afterward closing her eyes and letting her head fall back against the headboard. Her face looked grayer and older than it was.
âI wonder if Terryâs back,â she said.
âI donât know. I havenât seen Jay since yesterday.â
âArenât you terribly concerned?â
âDonât start that again. Please donât.â
âOh, excuse me.â Ardis raised her head and opened her eyes, disclosing the malice behind her lids. âIâd forgotten how sensitive you are on the subject of Terry. She made a fool of you with so little effort, didnât she?â
âI suppose she did. You are welcome to think so, if you like. Canât you forget it, Ardis? Canât you let me forget it?â
âThat would be nice for you, wouldnât it? Itâs not as easy as all that for me.â
âCanât I make you understand that there never really was anything between Terry and me? Nothing ever happened . She was only playing a game with me. Terryâs got a cruel streak in her. She enjoys things like that. Iâm not the type Terry would take seriously.â
âWhy not? Aside from being a fool in your personal affairs, youâre a brilliant physicist. You have a wonderful career ahead of you. All you have to do is use common sense.â
âTerry doesnât give a damn about physicists, brilliant or otherwise, and she didnât give a damn about me.â
âAre you saying that whatâs good enough for me isnât good enough for your precious Terry?â
Fool or not, Otis could see the folly of going any further in that direction. It was futile, in fact, to go anywhere in any direction. His offense had not been infidelity, but a fatuous gullibility that in her view reflected on his legal bedmate. He would have been in less trouble, actually, if he had done as well in adultery as in physics. He had not, however. He had been involved in a fiasco, not a conquest; and he admitted that he deserved Ardisâs scorn, although he yearned for surcease.
âNothing of the sort,â Otis said. âIâm just saying that Terry has a beastly set of values. Look at the way she treats Jay. She really has no regard for him, although heâs a very competent economist. Itâs a mystery to me why she ever married him. Sheâs much more taken with animals like Brian OâHara.â
Ardis sipped her coffee, staring at him slyly over the run of the cup.
ââO.â for OâHara?â she said.
âMust you be so devious, Ardis?â He sat down on the side of the bed, clutching his cup and saucer in his left hand. âI simply donât know what youâre talking about.â
âIâm talking about the Personal ad that appeared in Thursday eveningâs Journal.â
âWhat Personal ad?â
âIt was addressed to âT.M.â, and it was signed âO.â It arranged a meeting for a certain time and place.â
âWhat time and place?â
âThree oâclock Friday afternoon. Apparently at the university library.â
Otis stared into his cup. Then he shrugged and looked up.
âItâs absurd. In Terryâs case, whatâs more, completely unnecessary. In spite of the initials, I donât believe it was meant for her at all.â
âThat settles the matter very neatly, doesnât it? Case closed, eh?â
âDidnât you expect me to deny that it was âO.â for Otis? Very well, I deny it. All right, Iâve been a fool, but not so big a fool as to engage in any damn foolishness like this. Why should I? I could have spoken directly to Terry