informers brought on her went in there. Maria might well go to the trouble of writing out a denunciation. All the same, Annarita didnât think the folder would be very thick. She didnât go out of her way to cause trouble. Nothing the authorities had, wherever they got it from (and the informers you didnât know about, the ones who seemed like friends, could be more dangerous than out-and-out foes like Maria), would make large men in ill-fitting suits knock on her door in the middle of the night.
She hoped.
âI wishââ she began, and then she stopped.
âWhat?â Filippo asked.
âNothing,â Annarita said, and then, âIâd better head for home.â
As she walked out of Hoxha Polytechnic, she knew sheâd been right on the edge of saying something really dumb. She shook her head. That wasnât right. Sheâd been on the edge of saying something risky. Saying risky things was dumb, but what she almost said wasnât dumb at all. She sure didnât think so, anyhow.
I wish it werenât like this. I wish we could speak freely. I wish
the Security Police would leave us alone. I wish there were no Security Police .
If she did say something like that, what would happen? Sheâd get labeled a counterrevolutionary. Sheâd get taken somewhere for what they called reeducation. If she was lucky, theyâd let her out after a while. Even if they did, though, her chances for making it to the top would be gone forever.
If she wasnât so lucky, or if they thought she was stubborn, sheâd go to a camp after reeducation. Sheâd probably only get five years, ten at the mostâshe was still young, so theyâd give her the benefit of the doubt. But sheâd stay under suspicion, under surveillance, the rest of her life.
Just for saying people ought to be free of the Security Police. For saying people ought to be free, period.
Thatâs not right , she thought. It really isnât . She looked around in alarm, as if sheâd shouted it as loud as she could. She hadnât, of course, but she worried all the way home anyway. Maybe she really was a counterrevolutionary after all.
Four
âYouâre helping me in school,â Gianfranco told Eduardo the next time he walked into The Gladiator.
âDonât say that.â The clerk thrust out the index and little fingers of his right hand, holding the other two down with his thumbâa gesture against the evil eye. âWhoâd come in here if he thought we were educational?â
âBut you are. What would you call it?â Gianfranco pointed to the shelves full of books.
âThat stuff?â Eduardo shook his head. âThatâs only to help people play the games better. Games are just games. How can they teach you anything?â
Gianfranco might not be sharp in school. But he could hear irony, even if he didnât always call it by its right name. âYouâre trying to fool me,â he said now. âLots of people have learned lots of things from your books.â
âNow you know our secret,â Eduardo whispered hoarsely. âAnd do you know what happens to people who find out?â
âTell me,â Gianfranco said, curious in spite of himself. Eduardo used another gesture, with thumb and forefingerâhe aimed an imaginary pistol at Gianfranco. âBang!â he said.
Even though Gianfranco laughed, he wasnât a hundred percent
comfortable doing it. Eduardo was jokingâGianfranco thought Eduardo was jokingâbut he sounded a little too serious. If The Gladiator had a real secret, he might do everything he could to keep it.
How much was that? How much could people at a little shop like this do if somebody powerfulâsay, the Security Policeâcame down on them? Gianfrancoâs first thought was, Not much . But after a moment, he started to wonder. The Young Socialistsâ League at Hoxha Polytechnic