The Great Divorce by C. S. Lewis Page A

all come right presently) it wouldn’t have done. Not yet. He wouldn’t be able tosee or hear you as you are at present. You’d be totally invisible to Michael. But we’ll soon build you up.’
    â€˜I should have thought if you can see me, my own son could!’
    â€˜It doesn’t always happen like that. You see, I have specialised in this sort of work.’
    â€˜Oh, it’s work, is it?’ snapped the Ghost. Then, after a pause, ‘Well. When am I going to be allowed to see him?’
    â€˜There’s no question of being allowed, Pam. As soon as it’s possible for him to see you, of course he will. You need to be thickened up a bit.’
    â€˜How?’ said the Ghost. The monosyllable was hard and a little threatening.
    â€˜I’m afraid the first step is a hard one,’ said the Spirit. ‘But after that you’ll go on like a house on fire. You will become solid enough for Michael to perceive you when you learn to want Someone Else besides Michael. I don’t say “more than Michael”, not as a beginning. That will come later. It’s only the little germ of a desire for God that we need to start the process.’
    â€˜Oh, you mean religion and all that sort of thing? This is hardly the moment…and from you, of all people. Well, never mind. I’ll do whatever’s necessary. What do youwant me to do? Come on. The sooner I begin it, the sooner they’ll let me see my boy. I’m quite ready.’
    â€˜But, Pam, do think! Don’t you see you are not beginning at all as long as you are in that state of mind? You’re treating God only as a means to Michael. But the whole thickening treatment consists in learning to want God for His own sake.’
    â€˜You wouldn’t talk like that if you were a mother.’
    â€˜You mean, if I were only a mother. But there is no such thing as being only a mother. You exist as Michael’s mother only because you first exist as God’s creature. That relation is older and closer. No, listen, Pam! He also loves. He also has suffered. He also has waited a long time.’
    â€˜If He loved me He’d let me see my boy. If He loved me why did He take Michael away from me? I wasn’t going to say anything about that. But it’s pretty hard to forgive, you know.’
    â€˜But He had to take Michael away. Partly for Michael’s sake…’
    â€˜I’m sure I did my best to make Michael happy. I gave up my whole life…’
    â€˜Human beings can’t make one another really happy for long. And secondly, for your sake. He wanted yourmerely instinctive love for your child (tigresses share that, you know!) to turn into something better. He wanted you to love Michael as He understands love. You cannot love a fellow-creature fully till you love God. Sometimes this conversion can be done while the instinctive love is still gratified. But there was, it seems, no chance of that in your case. The instinct was uncontrolled and fierce and monomaniac. (Ask your daughter, or your husband. Ask our own mother. You haven’t once thought of her .) The only remedy was to take away its object. It was a case for surgery. When that first kind of love was thwarted, then there was just a chance that in the loneliness, in the silence, something else might begin to grow.’
    â€˜This is all nonsense—cruel and wicked nonsense. What right have you to say things like that about Mother-love? It is the highest and holiest feeling in human nature.’
    â€˜Pam, Pam—no natural feelings are high or low, holy or unholy, in themselves. They are all holy when God’s hand is on the rein. They all go bad when they set up on their own and make themselves into false gods.’
    â€˜My love for Michael would never have gone bad. Not if we’d lived together for millions of years.’
    â€˜You are mistaken. And you must know. Haven’t youmet—down