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M AYBE YES, MAYBE NO . Martin has been flirting with me this whole trip. I pretend to treat it lightly, but come on. Martin Harlow. Heâs like a piece of found art, rough around the edges, but with a form and function that haunts a girlâs dreams. At the moment, Iâm not dreaming, although everyone else in the rental van is. Iâm the only one awake besides the driver.
The last leg of the journey is always the hardest. Especially when the journey takes place at the blustery tail end of winter and youâre traveling from the sunny blaze of Los Angeles to the frigid wilds of northern Vermont. After the redeye flight from LA to New York, my production team and I endured a bumpy regional hop to Burlington, followed by a slog in two hired vans to our final destinationâÂSwitchback, Vermont.
Itâs my hometown, but I havenât lived here since I graduated high school. What is home? Maybe itâs not a place, but a moment in time. When I was safe. Secure. Cared for. Home . Itâs more than a point on a map. Itâs a sensation. A feeling of comfortâÂfeet sinking into warm slippers. Hands curling around a mug of fragrant coffee. Sounds of birdsong and breezes stirring the leaves in the maple trees. As my mind wraps around the notion of home , everything else falls away. It simply fades like the ambient noise we deal with on set every day when weâre filming a segment for the show.
I grew up knowing that the best maple syrup in the world comes from Vermont. And the best syrup in Vermont comes from Rush Mountain. Itâs been my familyâs business for generations. And now the production is going to set up, literally, in my own backyardâÂthe family sugarbush on Rush Mountain.
Many times, Iâve pictured myself coming back one day in triumph, having chased my dream clear to California and back. I suppose you could say thatâs what Iâm doing now, about to begin filming the pilot episode of a TV series I created.
When we pitched the show to the network, I was asked how I came up with the name, The Key Ingredient . The truth is, I had the name long before I had the show. It comes from the wisest woman Iâve ever knownâÂAnastasia Carnaby Rush, my grandmother. Gran used to say each recipe has a key ingredientâÂone element that defines it, without which the dish simply wouldnât be the same, like the vinegar in a red velvet cake, the threads of saffron in paella or the four pods of star anise she used to tuck into the pasta sauce as it simmered on the back burner.
What she really meant had nothing to do with a recipe you make in the kitchen. Iâve always regretted that I didnât figure that out sooner.
I wish Gran were still around for my homecoming, even though itâs for work and the budget only allows us seventy-Âtwo hours for filming. She would have been so happy for me.
When I was growing up, Gran and I watched hours and hours of PBS cooking shows together. This was in the â90s, before the food channels that are so ubiquitous these days exploded onto the scene. The older shows were pretty basicâÂa well-Âequipped kitchen, an island counter, a chopping board and four burners. Yet even the most pared-Âdown, simple production inspired us if the chef had a great personality. We loved it when the host would talk of his travels and share the stories behind the food, all the while demonstrating kitchen techniques we could practice. I learned to fold, cream, julienne and sauté by watching Martin Yan, Chef Tell and Mario Batali, while Gran wrote down the recipes so we could recreate them at home.
Even back then, it wasnât just the cooking techniques that drew me in. I was fascinated by the whole idea of a kitchen rigged with cameras so a talented chef or home cook could share her art. I dreamed of being in the spotlight myself, showing the world how to make egg pasta or maple-Âglazed carrots