handle it. But I couldnât. Not this. So I dropped my cheek to the rough bark, closed my eyes, and listened to the ceremony.
Listening wasnât easy, either. It was surreal when you knew that the kids they were reminiscing about were still alive. It was like hearing speeches at a wedding or a graduation, talking about someoneâs life, the best of their life, but instead of joy and laughter, each new recollection brought a sob or cry of grief.
When my dad got up to speak, I plugged my ears. I knew I had to. One crack in his voice and Iâd have leaped from that tree, running to the stage, shouting, âIâm here, Daddy. Iâm still here.â So I plugged my ears and I squeezed my eyes shut until Ash reached over and tapped my arm.
When I took my fingers from my ears, he caught my hand and I looked over to tell him not to worry, that I wasnât going to do anything stupid, but he only gave my hand a squeezeâa quick oneâbefore letting it fall.
THIRTEEN
T HE SERVICE ENDED AFTER that. It wasnât until it did, and people started filing back to the cars, that I realized what had happened. Nothing. Not a single parent had wandered from the service for a few minutes of solace. How could they? They were all trapped in the front row. They couldnât have slipped away even if they had wanted to.
When the service ended, ushers surrounded our parents and escorted them directly to their vehicles, just as theyâd escorted them in.
âTheyâre not letting them stop for nothing,â Ash said. âNot even a piss break. They have to hold it until they get them someplace safe.â
I kept watching. Kept hoping. But Chief Carling and Travis climbed in their car. So did Danielâs family and Mrs. Tillson and the Morrises. My parents and Grandma lingered. They didnât get up and talk to anyone, just sat in their seats as if they hadnât realized it was over. Two more ushers came over and finally got them into the car.
âNo one left,â I whispered. âNo one at all.â
âCould have told you that,â Ash said.
I glared over at him.
âWhat? I could have. Cabals are geniuses at this kind of thing. Theyâve been around since the Inquisition. Thatâs hundreds of years of experience acting like good corporate citizens while they do stuff that would make the Mafia take notes. Theyâll cover up your deaths and theyâll hold your parents prisoner until theyâve rounded you all up. And the beauty of it? Your parents wonât even realize they were prisoners. Theyâll just think the St. Clouds were being really, really helpful.â
He eased back on his branch. âI knew theyâd never let you near them.â
âThen why didnât you say so?â
âYou wouldnât have listened.â
There was no response to that, so I lay on the branch, staring down, sifting through the remaining friends and families for someone left that we could contact. Maybe. If we were careful. And desperate. When I saw Brendan Hajek over by the washrooms I turned my attention to him. He started heading in the opposite directionâaway from the service area. I glanced back to see his mother, the local veterinarian, helping remove the posters from the stage.
So Dr. Hajek had volunteered for clean-up duty and Brendan was using the break to wander off for a bit. Alone.
âI need to talk to Daniel,â I said. âIâm going down. Can you cover me?â
âWhat?â
Ash had been peering at something and jumped when I spoke. I had to repeat myself.
âNo, we need to stay here.â
âThereâs no one around. I can dashââ
âYou need to stay here, Maya, until those guys are gone.â He pointed to a cluster of strangers beside the stage.
âYou know them?â I said.
âNo, but theyâre obviously Cabal goons.â
They looked like normal mourners to me. The two guys