my fingers, but only clutched it harder.
âThose them?â
Ashâs voice brought me back again. I tore my gaze away just long enough to nod. When I looked back, Mom and Dad were at the front of the car, helping Grandma from the passenger seat.
âThey Navajo?â Ash asked. âThe women?â
âMy mom and grandmother. Theyâre Haida.â
âWhat the hellâs that? Some Canadian tribe?â
âYes.â
He snorted. âFigures. Got a spare Indian baby? Give it to any Indian whoâll take her. Theyâre all the same anyway.â He waved at my parents. âHell, doesnât even matter if the new dad is Indian or not. Heâs a forest ranger? Thatâs close enough. At one with nature and all thatââ
âShut up,â I snarled. âJust shut the hellââ I choked on the rest and turned back to my family. They were making their way forward. Dad had his arm around Mom, gripping so close he seemed to be holding her upright. Grandma was on her other side, clasping her hand.
Someone met them and gestured to chairs in front of a giant photo. It was from this past spring, of me crouched, hugging Kenjii, and grinning. We were both splattered with mud after Dad let Daniel and me take his Jeep off-roading after a heavy rain. Weâd come back and Mom made us stay outsideânot because of the mud, but because she wanted pictures. In the real photo Daniel was there, too, standing behind me, and I could see his hand in the blown-up version. A disembodied hand resting on my shoulder. I wished theyâd left him in it, maybe even let us have a joint photo, but his dad had picked one of Daniel in a suit, looking somber and uncomfortable and not like Daniel at all.
When the man directed them to their spot, Mom seemed to notice the photo for the first time. She stopped, making Dad falter and Grandma stumble. Then she . . . she made this noise. This horrible noise. A keening wail as she dropped. Just dropped, like someone had cut her legs out from under her, and Dad grabbed her before she hit the ground, and he crouched there, bent on one knee, with Mom collapsed against him, and I could hear her crying. Even from here, I could hear her crying.
âI canât do this,â I said, scrambling onto all fours. âI have to go tellââ
âNo!â Ash swung up. He poised there, ready to pounce on me. âYou canât, Maya.â
I looked back at my parents, buried against each other, my dadâs back rising and falling hard, and I knew he was crying, too. I should have listened to Daniel. Why the hell hadnât I listened to Daniel? Because Iâd been stubborn. Stubborn and proud, as always, and now I saw exactly what heâd meant and how right heâd been. This was cruelâunbelievably cruelâwatching my parents suffer when all I had to do was leap from this tree and run overâ
I let out a shuddering breath and looked over to where Daniel was hiding and saw him there, half rising from the grass, his gaze fixed on me. He raised his hand, not quite a wave, more just . . . something. Some attempt at contact, at comfort, and I wished I was there. Damn it, why wasnât I with him? What the hell had possessed me to be up here, to go through this alone?
I lifted my hand, reaching out. Then Corey pulled him down.
âGood,â Ash grunted.
I glanced over and reminded myself I wasnât alone. Not really. But in some ways, I wished I was, because I got nothing from Ash. Not a smile. Not a kind word. Not even a sympathetic look. He just scowled, like I was going to blow our cover over nothing.
I turned back to my parents.
âDonât.â
I looked over again. Now I saw some glimmer in his eyes, though he held his face tight, lips still compressed.
âDonât look,â he said. âJust . . . donât look.â
I hesitated, and I wanted to say I could
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