he smiled. âBut I understand. Itâs easy to have doubts.â
âYou donât seem to have any.â
âNope,â he said. He went back to his cleaning. âExcept maybe whether this stain will come out or not.â
You have to understand, I hated the guy because Vicky liked him, but, unlike Moore, who just annoyed me whether he was right or wrong, Ethan had this air of calm authority I respected and, well, feared a little. Part of me believed he
did
have all the answers.
âHey, Ethan, can I ask you something?â
âSure.â
âRumor is your dad lost his job and the house.â
He raised an eyebrow. âAnd youâre wondering why I just donât imanifest more money for myself and my family, get back what we lost?â
âWell, yeah. Why donât you?â
Hearing it out loud, I felt stupid for asking, like Iâd just asked a priest, if God was all-powerful, could he make a rock sobig he himself couldnât lift it? That always struck me as a good question, but it was an insulting one, one a kid would ask.
Ethan buffed the paper towels against his pants like he was shining shoes.
âWell, Caleb, the human mindâs a funny thing,â he began, which made me feel even more like an idiot. âWe think of all sorts of things. Millions of thoughts a minute. The thoughts weâre aware of are just the tip of an iceberg. Canât control
all
of them, right? Iâm sure everything in my life happened because part of me wanted it to, but I canât be sure why. I think it happened maybe because it was part of my bigger purpose.â
My mind flashed back to the day the gym collapsed. Had I been there for a reason?
Was
I secretly ashamed of being a slacker?
âI donât get it. You think youâre subconsciously punishing yourself?â
He folded the paper towel in fours, tossed it out, and straightened his pant leg. âNo. No, no, no. I think maybe I sent myself here to help out people like you, who really need it. I mean, look around. Who needs help more than Screech Neck? Some of you guys donât even have cell phones.â
He had on this half grin that mightâve been sheepish, but if you looked at it another way, it was smug. If he was trying to joke with me, I wasnât laughing.
âCell phones?â
The grin got wider. Smug. Definitely smug now. âSure, you act like itâs okay, but itâs like youâre not part of the twenty-first century. If you ask the kids what college they want to goto, most donât even know. And thatâs the
seniors
. I mean, unless you have some idea of what you want to do with your life, youâll never do anything, right, Caleb?â
âRight.â
Only . . . my ambition is to float.
He slapped me on the shoulder on his way out. âIf Iâm here talking to you, you must have wanted me here for some reason, too. Maybe Iâm here to help fix everybody.â
I had another question, but the door closed behind him.
I asked anyway, to myself, âDude, are you sure weâre broken?â
I stepped out in the hall and made my way toward the gym. There werenât many people around. There never were when the Basket Cases played, but even so, this crowd was anemic. Searching for snacks, I spotted a nice old-fashioned corn popper in a red wagon in front of the gym doors. Even their freaking popcorn was special. Remembering my deal with Erica, I plopped down four bucks for two bags.
As I reached the gym doors, which, of course, are these beautiful polished things that made you feel like you were entering the Emerald City from Oz, I spotted a familiar figure at the school entrance. It took me a while to realize who it was, because he wasnât dressed in black and didnât have undead eyes or black lips. Still, that size and shape could belong to only one man: Landon, the Goth who craved an Xbox, which sounds kind of like the title of a fairy