silver petals creaking a little when the breezes rose. The sun had baked everything to perfection; even the gooseberries on the fence had fried to raisins.
The asphalt ran out, turned to gravel. I listened to the sound it made scraping under our shoes. Perspiration puddled in the notch where Rosaleenâs collarbones came together. I didnât know whose stomach was carrying on more about needing food, mine or hers, and since weâd started walking, Iâd realized it was Sunday, when the stores were closed up. I was afraid weâd end up eating dandelions, digging wild turnips and grubs out of the ground to stay alive.
The smell of fresh manure floated out from the fields and took care of my appetite then and there, but Rosaleen said, âI could eat a mule.â
âIf we can find some place open when we get to town, Iâll go in and get us some food,â I told her.
âAnd whatâre we gonna do for beds?â she said.
âIf they donât have a motel, weâll have to rent a room.â
She smiled at me then. âLily, child, there ainât gonna be any place that will take a colored woman. I donât care if sheâs the Virgin Mary, nobodyâs letting her stay if sheâs colored.â
âWell, what was the point of the Civil Rights Act?â I said, coming to a full stop in the middle of the road. âDoesnât that mean people have to let you stay in their motels and eat in their restaurants if you want to?â
âThatâs what it means, but you gonna have to drag people kicking and screaming to do it.â
I spent the next mile in deep worry. I had no plan, no prospects of a plan. Until now Iâd mostly believed we would stumble upon a window somewhere and climb through it into a brand-new life. Rosaleen, on the other hand, was out here biding time till we got caught. Counting it as summer vacation from jail.
What I needed was a sign. I needed a voice speaking to me like Iâd heard yesterday in my room saying, Lily Melissa Owens, your jar is open.
Iâll take nine steps and look up. Whatever my eyes light on, thatâs my sign. When I looked up, I saw a crop duster plunging his little plane over a field of growing things, behind him a cloud of pesticides parachuting out. I couldnât decide what part of this scene I represented: the plants about to be rescued from the bugs or the bugs about to be murdered by the spray. There was an off chance I was really the airplane zipping over the earth creating rescue and doom everywhere I went.
I felt miserable.
The heat had been gathering as we walked, and it now dripped down Rosaleenâs face.
âToo bad thereâs not a church around here where we could steal some fans,â she said.
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From far away the store on the edge of town looked about a hundred years old, but when we got up to it, I saw it was actually older. A sign over the door said FROGMORE STEW GENERAL STORE AND RESTAURANT. SINCE 1854.
General Sherman had probably ridden by here and decided to spare it on the basis of its name, because Iâm sure it hadnât been on looks. The whole front of it was a forgotten bulletin board: Studebaker Service, Live Bait, Buddyâs Fishing Tournament, Rayford Brothersâ Ice Plant, Deer Rifles $45, and a picture of a girl wearing a Coca-Cola bottle cap on her head. A sign announced a gospel sing at the Mount Zion Baptist Church that took place back in 1957, if anyone wanted to know.
My favorite thing was the fine display of car tags nailed up from different states. I would like to have read every single one, if Iâd had the time.
In the side yard a colored man lifted the top of a barbecue pit made from an oil drum, and the smell of pork lathered in vinegar and pepper drew so much saliva from beneath my tongue I actually drooled onto my blouse.
A few cars and trucks were parked out front, probably belonging to people who cut church and came here