The Vow by Jessica Martinez Page B

this means. I want to think about the possibilities for a while, but he doesn’t stop to let me.
    “We’ll barbecue in my grandmother’s backyard and probably play something civilized like croquet or horseshoes. Acceptable?”
    “Perfectly.” I place the invitation on the lip of the counter so it hangs between us. “When is it?”
    “Sunday night. Soup wants everyone from work to be able to come.”
    “This Sunday?”
    He nods.
    “I’m supposed to go into Louisville with my dad,” I say. “I don’t know when we’ll be getting back.”
    The back door squeals behind me, and eau de nicotine-and-hairspray fills the room. Reed takes a tiny step away from me.
    “Damn rain,” Flora mutters as she walks by. She doesn’t look at me, which means she’s still thinking about Lena. I want to tell her she needs to smoke something stronger than a Marlboro Light for that, but the door chime sounds and a group of drenched kids rush in, giggling and dripping all over the place.
    Flora takes the first order, and Reed begins to move away when something comes over me. Desperation. I don’t want him to walk away yet. Without thinking, I reach out and place my hand on his forearm. It’s warm and smooth. The muscle beneath my fingers tenses. What am I doing? It was supposed to be a friendly gesture, but now there’s a current running between his skin and my fingertips, and I can’t pull my eyes from my white hand on his tan forearm.
    “Uh, thanks for cheering me up,” I say, attempting to sound casual.
    He stares at my hand. “You’re welcome.”
    I should let go of him now, but I don’t want to break the current or lose the smell of rainwater and oranges. I want to hold on to his calm. I’m still frozen when he takes his free hand and lifts my fingers from his arm in a movement so achingly slow that it takes me a moment to realize what he’s doing. He’s freeing himself. Now it’s too late to pull my hand away, and the humiliation is already singeing my whole body.
    I want to die.
    But he doesn’t let go. He turns it palm up, takes the envelope from the counter, and puts it in my open hand. “Come.”
    I nod.
    He lets go of me. My heart is racing so fast I could collapse, but he doesn’t notice. He’s already taking the next order. Trembling, I slip the envelope into my apron pocket and get back to work.
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    U nbelievably, I manage to serve custard beside him. My heartbeat doesn’t slow, and the rain doesn’t stop, but business picks up anyway, though I have no clue who I’m serving. Some kids. An elderly couple. My middle school band teacher, whose name it takes me half a minute to remember, and his wife. Some more kids. Then Soup stops by to “make sure you guys haven’t burnt the joint down yet” and tinker with the still-broken Relic and finicky ice machine. He wishes us a happy weekend, then leaves with miscellaneous ice machine parts and a peanut butter milk shake.
    The whole time I can feel Reed from across the room, an actual vibration when he’s closer. Twice our bare arms brush and I hold my breath.
    When it is that the rain finally stops I don’t know, but when I step outside to haul trash to the Dumpster with Flora, it’s magically silent. The night is moonless. The poststorm air is sweet and still.
    We take two bags each. She makes her way around glassy puddles, and I walk through them, then I walk her to her rusted Cavalier. We’re open for another hour, but the shop isn’t busy, so she’s casino-bound. I’m staying till close.
    “Where’s your car?” Flora asks as she digs through her purse for keys. Reed’s is the only other vehicle in the lot.
    “My friend dropped me off.”
    She turns toward me with her mouth hanging open like a big saggy fish. “Are you crazy?”
    I flinch. That word. Nobody ever says it to my face. Once you’ve spent time in a mental institution, people are careful about phrases like that. It takes a moment to realize what she assumes. “Oh. No. I’m