introduces us. Itâs the owner of Potstill, Gary.
Gary doesnât even meet my eyes, just takes his phone out and answers a text, sighing deeply, while Joe, unbidden, gets him a seltzer with lime. Gary looks like an ex-boxer who eats way too many subs. Bug eyes, receding pale hair, a nondescript goatee that isnât bushy enough for Brooklyn.
Gary takes a long drink, burps loudly, and finally looks up. âIâm closing the bar.â
âWhat?â Joe is shocked. âWhy? Last night was huge. This could be a great live music venueââ
âPeople who watch music donât drink whiskey,â says Gary, with total confidence.
âWe could offer other drinks, expand the barââ
âThere is no âwe,â Joe. Thereâs only âme.â I own the place. You just manage it. Donât forget that.â
Wow, Gary is an asshole.
Joe takes a deep breath, clearly trying to stay calm, and finally asks, âWhen?â
âIâll put it on the market at the end of the summer. Iâm going to my place in Nantucket until then. My wifeâs having another fucking baby. She refuses to stay in the city.â
Did he just say another fucking baby ? Charming.
âOkay,â Joe is suddenly very interested in polishing already-clean glasses. âThanks for letting me know.â
Gary stands up, drains his seltzer, and, without even saying good-bye, leaves the bar. The door slams behind him.
Thereâs a long silence.
âI canât believe thatâs it,â mutters Joe finally. âPotstill is dead.â
âMaybe someone will buy it and see the potentialâ¦â My voice trails off into nothingness.
âNo one is going to look at the numbers and keep this bar open, Coco. They could make a lot more money ripping the guts out and building something new.â
Joe sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose, a gesture that reminds me of Julia. She texted earlier: sheâs recovered from Peter the Magnificent and is now out with Pia and Angie, while Madeleine rehearses with her band. Iâd usually be with them, I guess, or maybe in the old days with Ethan while he monologued at me, teaching me things I didnât want to learn. Iâm glad Iâm here, though. This feels like the right place to be.
âIf I could do one thing right now, it would be to make this bar a success,â says Joe wistfully.
âIf I could do one thing right now, Iâdâ¦â My voice trails off. I canât tell Joe the truth. Heâd just think I was silly. And I donât want just one thing, I want three. I want to be thin. I want to fall in love. I want to figure out what Iâm going to do with the rest of my damn life. And I have no idea how to do any of the above.
âYou want another Whiskey Smash?â I ask.
Joe grins at me. âSure.â
As I make them, Joe takes his iPod out of his back pocket.
âYou know what annoys me most about Gary? He doesnât even like music. He agreed to let Spector play here because he owed someone in the band for helping him out with some pot deal.â Joe reaches up to an ancient set of speakers and stereo system. âI donât particularly like pot. But I fucking love music.â
A new song comes over the loudspeakers. âThis is MGMT,â he says. âTime to Pretend.â
âItâs greatâ¦â I say. But Joe isnât listening.
Then he looks back at me. âLetâs get langers.â
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CHAPTER 10
So we do.
By the time the bar closes, weâve sampled most of the whiskeys behind the bar, plus three more Whiskey Smashes (me) and four more Rob Roys (Joe).
A few more patrons come in, but each time, as if on cue, the previous patrons leave. Which means practically no actual bartending is done. Instead, we listen to music, talk, and, you know, drink. I canât think of the last time I had this much fun.
Later, sometime around