anything to be running round after her child and that exhausted that she would just fall in to bed at the end of the night. This was why she hadn’t wanted to live in this house again. It bought back too many memories. She had spent the last five years constantly working and trying to forget the pain and emptiness inside her but just a few days in this house and it was all coming back.
She watched the children playing for a few minutes before leaving Jasmine to it and heading back to the lounge area where she could hear Connor and his dad having a heated debate about the hotel chain that they owned. She didn’t make it back to the lounge area though as she nearly ran in to Alexa.
“Oh hi,” Alexa said and Lilly simply looked at her until she shifted uncomfortably.
“Excuse me,” Lilly said firmly as she tried to step past her but Alexa stopped her with a hand to her arm.
“I didn’t really get a chance to say how great it is to see you back here,” Alexa said and Lilly stared at her in disbelief. Did she really think that acting like she was glad to see her made up for everything?
“I’m sure you’d rather I’d stayed away,” Lilly said coldly and Alexa looked confused by that though Lilly knew it was just an act.
“We all missed you, especially Connor. I’m just glad that you two finally worked things out,” Alexa said in that sweet soft voice of hers. It just annoyed Lilly. She had the nerve to sleep with her husband and then act like the innocent party?
“I’m sure you are,” Lilly said dryly and Alexa looked even more confused.
“Lilly, did I upset you in some way?” she asked and Lilly shrugged.
“I’m just readjusting to everything,” she said and Alexa gave a small nod.
“Of course, I’m sorry. I just wanted you to know that you’re not alone and that we’re all here for you,” Alexa said and Lilly gave her a forced smile before finally escaping her presence and returning to the lounge.
All she had wanted to do when confronted by Alexa was lash out and make her feel as much pain as she had. But she hadn’t wanted to show everyone how pathetic and weak she was. She had promised Connor that they would start over and she had meant it. From now on every time she was forced to spend any time with Alexa she would be civil and nothing more. She didn’t want Connor to realise that she knew about his affair and thinking that by coming back she somehow condoned it.
The rest of the night was more relaxed and Lilly enjoyed talking with his parents though she barely spoke to Alexa. She wasn’t impressed when Alexa took Connor out of the room to talk to him and they were gone for at least ten minutes. Lilly couldn’t help but wonder what they were really doing.
Finally they all decided it was time to leave when Jasmine announced that she needed to get Becca home to bed. Lilly hadn’t wanted to see his family so soon after she had got back with Connor but now she was glad she had. They hadn’t seemed to hold any grudges against her for leaving him and she was surprised for nobody knew the real reason that she had left. It had been an enjoyable night though and she was glad that Connor had talked her in to it.
When they had left everything seemed ten times as quiet especially because Melissa was so tired that it barely took moments to put her to bed before she was fast asleep. In the silence Lilly suddenly felt awkward around Connor and didn’t know how to react towards him. Deep inside she still wanted to hurl all of her anger at him and make him hurt as much as he hurt her. Yet she also wanted to go back to the way things were before.
It was obvious that Connor had meant what he said when he’d forced her back in to their marriage and she had two choices. She could either try to ignore him the entire time and make his life miserable which was what she really wanted to do. But then what exactly would it achieve? She would only make herself miserable too. The other choice was that
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