Instead, when the doorbell rang they all greeted her like they had genuinely missed her. It had bought tears to her eyes.
Connors parents were first through the door and his father Jake was as formidable as she remembered him but he placed a kiss to her cheek and insisted that he was glad she was back. Connor’s mother Kaycee was always warm hearted and she pulled Lilly in to a hug as soon as she saw her.
“We missed you baby girl,” she said and Lilly fought the tears that were fighting to get out. Kaycee had always been lovely to her and she had forgotten how much she had considered her to be a mother to her.
Next through the door was Alexa and she seemed put out when Lilly ignored her but she simply smiled and greeted Connor instead, which wound Lilly up more. Finally Jasmine and her daughter arrived and Lilly couldn’t help but smile at Jasmine’s exasperation with the little girl.
“Honestly she’s done nothing but throw temper tantrums all afternoon,” Jasmine said in exhaustion as she let her three year old daughter loose and then gave a disgruntled sigh as she immediately ran to Melissa with a grin.
“Seems fine to me,” Connor said with a grin while Jasmine glared at him.
“Figures that as soon as there’s a witness she starts behaving,” she said while he chuckled.
Connor made sure that everyone had drinks and Lilly thought that while he was busy they would all make sure that they knew she wasn’t wanted here but instead they were all very welcoming. Even Alexa was trying to talk to her like the old friends they used to be but Lilly wanted nothing to do with the other woman.
The conversation was kept light and didn’t touch on any dangerous topics until they all sat down to dinner. Suddenly it seemed like everyone wanted to discuss subjects that Lilly didn’t even want to think about.
“I was thinking we could do a renewal,” Kaycee announced and they all looked at her in confusion.
“A renewal of what?” Connor asked and she grinned at him.
“A renewal of your vows of course. A new start seems like a good idea,” she said and Lilly stiffened at that. Surely Connor didn’t want them going through a ceremony that would be a sham? They’d already had the perfect wedding and even through the bad memories she had remembered that day as perfect. If they had a renewal it would ruin even the good memories she had.
“I don’t think we’re anywhere near ready for that. We’re just taking things slow,” Connor said and his mother snorted.
“Taking things slow? You’ve been married for over five years,” she said and he sighed while Lilly fought not to show any of her thoughts on her face.
“And we’re getting to know each other again. We don’t want a renewal,” he insisted and thankfully Kaycee changed the subject. Lilly was surprised that Connor had stood up for her though because she had thought that a renewal would be just another way to trap her further in to this marriage.
The rest of the meal was more relaxed and nobody bought up any more awkward subjects. Lilly found herself beginning to relax and it was almost like old times. She had always loved the family meals because she had never had that sort of relationship with her own family.
After the meal they had coffee and sat in the lounge chatting between them. Melissa and Becca were up in Melissa’s room playing with the toys and both Jasmine and Lilly had stood in the doorway watching for a few moments to make sure that they were behaving.
“If only she was like this all the time,” Jasmine said with a smile and Lilly laughed.
“I think they’re all a bit of a handful at that age,” Lilly said and it was Jasmine’s turn to laugh.
“She’s definitely that. I just don’t know where she gets all her energy from,” Jasmine said.
Lilly smiled but inside she was hurting. She knew that Jasmine didn’t mean anything by it but all it reminded her of was the fact that she had lost her baby. She would have given