didnât go unappreciated, and Karen found herself warming to her sister. âMe, too. What Iâm really hoping for is a part in a commercial. Iâm trying out for another spot next week. The director liked me the last time and wants to see me again.â
Her motherâs eyes narrowed and she put down her fork.
âNaturally, Iâd love a role in a weekly series,â Karen added. âBut according to my agent I need a few credits first. She thinks I should get my feet wet doing commercials. Plus, the pay isnât bad, and there are residuals. Then she wants me to audition for a part in a situation comedy.â
With great deliberateness, her mother smeared a dollop of sour cream on the quesadilla, and Karen saw that her hand shook as she did so.
âEven if you got a part in a commercial, youâd go back to substitute teaching, wouldnât you?â Catherine asked.
âWell, yes, I suppose, but teaching is only a means to an end for me. Iââ
âI thought you were finally putting your college degree to good use. Your father and I paid a great deal of money for your education. You canât imagine how much it distressed us to hear that youâre more interested inâ¦in cleaning toilets than in making something worthwhile of your life.â
âIt wasnât exactly a housecleaning job,â Karen muttered. âNot that thereâsââ She stopped abruptly, forcing herself to swallow the rest of her retort. âI deeply appreciate my education, Mom.â Which was true, but only because it allowed her to support herself while trying out for acting roles.
âAre you seeing anyone?â Victoria asked, once again diverting the conversation to a different subject.
âJeff and I went out the other night.â
âJeff Hansen?â her mother asked. âIsnât he the boy from your high-school drama group?â
âYes, heâs teaching aerobics classes at Body and Spirit Gymnasium, and wants to get back into acting. I hooked him up with my agent.â
âOh, dear,â Catherine murmured. âI play bridge with his motherâ¦. She was so pleased when Jeff got a real job, and now this.â
âWhy do you think acting is such a horrible career?â Karen burst out. âCan you explain that to me once and for all?â
Her mother sighed as though the answer should be obvious. âYou mean you donât know? Just look at the class of people who become professional actors! Theyâre all involved with drugs and not a one of them stays married. These women get pregnant and most donât even bother to marry the childâs father. They have babies by a bunch of different men. They take their clothes off for the whole world to see. They have absolutely no morals, Karenâand everyone knows the successful ones sleep with their casting directors. The unsuccessful ones are just unemployed.â
âThatâs so unfair,â Karen cried, not caring that sheâd attracted attention to herself. âYouâre judging me by whatâs in the tabloids. Thereâs more to being an actress than what those headlines scream and furthermore, you canât believe everything you read!â The only true thing her mother had said was that remark about unemployment, which Karen chose to ignore. âBesides,â she added, ânot all actors use drugs.â
âIâve read about those Hollywood parties with the drugs and sex and God knows what else. I donât want my daughter mixing with that kind of crowd.â
âMom, you donât know what youâre talking about!â
âI do. Theyâll lure you in. Weird cults and casting couchesâ¦â
âIâm not doing drugs,â Karen insisted. âIâve never come across a cult, weird or otherwise. And Iâve never even seen a casting couch, let alone done anything on one.â
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