seems to Robert. Well, really.
âOh,â he says. âMaybe itâs that promotion youâve been upset about. I just wish you wouldnât let it get you down.â He smiles at her. âMaybe itâs a lucky break, you know, in disguise. Do you really want a lot more responsibility?â
She shrugs, seeming to consider the question carefully.
âI mean,â he hastens on, âdonât you have more time the way things are now? In case, well,â he almost says we have children, âyou want to travel . . . or whatever.â
She stares carefully at him. âWell, maybe youâre right.â
He wipes some dishes, thinking, God, who knows what sheâll do? I mean, once she knows, thereâs no turning back,no putting things in a different light. Hello, Iâm in love, I want outâthatâs a lot for her to deal with. She might get crazy on me. . . .
âYes,â Robert says after a moment, âit probably is a blessing, you know, in disguise.â
Chapter
16
⢠ Sunday around two, Anne sits at her desk in the upstairs den, looking over the bank statement, balancing their checkbooks, hers and Robertâs. âAnne,â he told her the first year they were married, âif my checkbookâs only ten or twenty dollars off, thatâs good enough for me.â She smiles, still not able to believe anybody could mean that.
At work, she has to make hundred-million-dollar budgets work out to the penny. If her own finances werenât handled the same way, sheâd feel indecent, like going to the office without her clothes on.
Anne glances at her watch, thinks about her plan to leave Robert alone in the house. âYes,â she says softly, âIâm doing it.â Alone for two hours, all by himself, nothing but Robert and a lot of phones.
She imagines the dark technology hidden in her basement. Waiting there for . . . what?
For Robert to call . . . whom?
Anne finishes with the checkbooks, then goes downstairs to the kitchen. She stares out the window into the backyard, sees Robert stretched out on one of the lounge chairs, reading the Times. Sections of the huge Sunday edition scattered on the grass.
Very bright out there. Definitely a spring day. Well, about time. But it must be still chilly. Robertâs wearing a burgundy windbreaker.
She goes to the front closet to find a light coat, then out to talk to Robert.
âAnything I have to read?â
She stands near the foot of the chair, her arms crossed over her chest.
âThe chess column,â he jokes. âYou can kind of skim over the rest. One of these days theyâll be competition. . . .â He grins handsomely. Or is it tensely? âBut not yet.â
âOf course not,â she says loyally. She walks over to look at the flower beds. âThingsâll be coming up in a few weeks!â
âThey better.â
âWell,â she says, âI have a little shopping to do.â
He stares at her, eyebrows up. âNeed any help?â Wanting to sayâhalf a second from sayingâ Anne, we have to talk.
âOh, no,â she tells him, âyou stay here. Rest up for tennis.â
âWilsons at four, right?â He canât say it. Damn, why is it so damned hard to do?
âYes.â
âIâll come along if you want.â
âNo, no. I have to see somebody about slipcovers. Boring.â Like me.
âAlright,â he says, settling back. Is he relieved? Sheâs not sure. Maybe.
âIâll be back by, letâs see, three thirty,â she says as she turns toward the house. âDonât worry,â she adds. âI wonât be late.â
Anne goes through the house toward the car. The goodwife on the way to do errands. She smiles faintly, bitterly. What errands? Call it what it is, she thinks. Iâm setting a trap.
Anne gets in the car,