all her playful talk about how much of a pain Tucker is, is she sensitive about him? I guess I can understand why. I can make fun of Jeffrey all I want, but if somebody else messes with my little brother, they better watch out.
âSo, Elvis then? Iâm running out of options here.â
âSure.â She leans back against the wall and stretches her arms over her head, as if the conversation has exhausted her. âNobody really cares.â
âYeah, well, youâve been here forever,â I remind her. âYouâre accepted. I feel like if I make one wrong move, I might get chased off school property by an angry mob.â
âOh please. Youâll be accepted. I accepted you, didnât I?â
That she had. After two weeks Iâm still eating lunch at the Invisibles lunch table.
So far Iâve identified two basic groups at Jackson Hole High School: the Havesâthe pretty people, comprised of the wealthy Jackson Holers, whose parents own restaurants and art galleries and hotels; and the much smaller and less conspicuous Have-Notsâthe kids whose parents work for the rich Jackson Holers. To see the great divide between these groups, you only have to look from Kay, in all her coiffed perfection and French-tipped manicured fingernails, to Wendy, who, though undeniably pretty, usually wears her sun-streaked hair in a simple braid down her back, and her fingernails are polish free and sports clipped.
So where do I fit in?
Iâm quickly starting to figure out that our large house with a mountain view means that we have the big bucks, money Mom never mentioned back in California. Apparently weâre loaded. Still, Mom raised us without any idea of wealth. She lived through the Great Depression, after all, insists that Jeffrey and I save a portion of our allowance each week, makes us eat every morsel of food on our plates, darns our socks and mends our clothes, and sets the thermostat to low because we can always put on another sweater.
âYes, you accepted me, but Iâm still trying to figure out why,â I say to Wendy. âI think you must be some kind of a freak. Either that or youâre trying to convert me to your secret horse religion.â
âDarn, you got me,â she says theatrically. âYou thwarted my evil plan.â
âI knew it!â
I like Wendy. Sheâs quirky and kind, and just solidly good people. And sheâs saved me from being labeled as a freak or a loner, as well as from the sting of missing my friends back in Cali. When I call them, already it feels like we donât have much to talk about now that Iâm out of the loop. Itâs obvious that theyâre moving on with their lives without me.
But I canât think about that or whether Iâm a Have or Have-Not. My real problem has nothing to do with being rich or poor but instead with the fact that most of the students at Jackson Hole High have known each other since kindergarten. They formed all their cliques years ago. Even though my natural inclination is to stick with the more modest crowd, Christian is one of the pretty people, so thatâs where I need to be. But there are obstacles. Huge, glaring obstacles. The first being lunch. The popular crowd usually goes off campus. Of course. If you have money, and a car, would you stay on campus and dine on chicken-fried steak? I think not. I have money, and a car, but the first week of class I did a 180 on the icy roads on the way to school. Jeffrey said it was better than Six Flags, that little spin we took in the middle of the highway. Now we ride the bus, which means I canât go off campus for lunch unless someone gives me a ride, and people arenât exactly lining up with offers. Which leads me to obstacle number two: Apparently Iâm shy, at least around people who donât pay much attention to me. I never noticed this in California. I never needed to be outgoing at my old school; my friends