program like that. I canât wait to see what happens today!â
Oh, my Lord, theyâre talking about that stupid Paris Heights. Iâm about to walk away when Lottie changes the subject.
âI still feel bad about your mom last night. I know she was trying to help.â Lottie tucks her hair behind her ear. âItâs just that Tootsieâs only three, and sheâs used to being at home with our mom.â Lottieâs voice crumbles on that last part.
âYeah, thatâs what my mom said too.â Melissa sighs. âPoor Tootsie! Iâve never seen anyone cry like that before, and every night! My mom thinks sheâll be all right, though; sheâll get used to being at our house.â
I try to picture Tootsie in Melissaâs house, but I canât do it. I can only imagine her in her and Lottieâs roomâTootsie-Tutu and her dolls, Tootsie and me and Purple Eyebrows. It crushes me to think of Tootsie crying every night. My eyes get big and wet but I donât blink.
I hear a ragged breath and when I look back out, Lottieâs head is bent. Melissa slips onto the swing next to Lottie and puts her arm around her. âDonât cry, Lottie,â she says. âYour dad will work it out. Heâs on the phone with the insurance people every day.â
âI know,â Lottie says. âBut . . .â
She donât say nothing else. Then they just sit there, swinging.
My throat aches something awful. I stand there, not because I am a slow-moving statue, but because a heaviness has filled me up. Waves of sadness wash over me. I quietly move away from the living room and close up the other rooms.
When I walk back up to the front, I make a lot of noise; I donât want to hear anything else Iâm not supposed to. But when I push on the front window, it donât budge. Itâs stuck open. Gritting my teeth, I stand on my tiptoes and haul the window down with all my might. Blam! Melissa startles at the noise, but I donât get no pleasure out of it, thatâs how bad Iâm feeling.
I put on my fake-happy face when I step out. I havenât had much practice with this one âcause I usually donât have to fake this face, but itâs been an awful hard summer. As we walk, Lottie talks more about her dad yelling on the phone and Tootsie crying every time Mr. and Mrs. Townsend leave; then we start talking about school and I find out me and Lottie wonât even be in class together.
As we cut into the woods, we see Eddie.
âEddie!â I shout. Then I remember what Melissa said about Eddie and me, and I look at her real quick. But sheâs not looking at me; sheâs looking at him, and her face has gone all soft.
âHey, Violet!â He throws a stick into the woods and meets us on the path. âHey,â he says to Lottie and Melissa. Even though Melissa has teased me about him, I canât help but be pleased that mine is the only name he actually says.
âWeâre going to look for shells by the bridge,â Lottie says. âWant to come?â
âSure. Might see Alfred today.â
Before I can chime in to correct the name, Melissa says, âWhoâs Alfred?â
Eddie looks at her wide-eyed. âYou ainât heard of Alfred?â
Melissa shakes her head. She listens carefully.
âAlfred is the biggest alligator weâve spotted,â he says. I notice he donât mention we ainât seen Allie since last year.
âAlligator!â Melissa says. By the lift of her voice, I canât tell if sheâs excited or scared, but I choose scared for her.
I walk up and stand by Eddie. âNo big deal,â I say.
Melissaâs look of awe radiates. âYou mean you saw it too?â
I shrug one shoulder. âYeah.â
She stares at us, then squints and shakes her head. âNo way!â
âItâs true,â Lottie says. âEven though I didnât see