phone back down.
The drunk man returned to his seat near me and smiled every few minutes, but had left me alone. I was grateful. I couldn’t take any more people telling me how sorry they were, or how great of a guy Chase was. I know it was the polite thing for people to do and say, but I had heard it enough.
I ordered another drink as my phone lit up again. The same thing as before, just a message and nothing else. Maybe he was finally telling me off. My voice-mail only holds sixty second messages. I downed my drink and ordered another when a voice behind me told the bartender to cash me out.
It took a few minutes in my alcohol riddled brain to realize I was not going to get my drink. I spun on my stool and came face to face with a detective with his badge around his neck.
“ Why are you cut me off?” I slurred, in my drunken state while the room spun.
“ Miss Carson, I think we should get some water into you.” The young, black haired, blue-eyed detective said, as he cloned himself in my vision.
“ You don’t drunk me,” I spoke with my finger aimed at one of him.
“ Miss Carson, I am Detective Mark Stone. You may not remember me. I worked with Chase on a few cases before he passed away.”
“ I know you, but I don’t want to talk about Chase,” I slurred.
“ I am not here to talk about it, but I am here to help you sober up and get you home.”
“ Did the drunk guy call you?” I stated pointing at an empty bar stool. When did that guy leave? My brain was foggy and I couldn’t make sense of anything much.
“ Something like that. May I join you?” Mark asked, as I spun and nearly fell off my stool. We then talked for about two hours, as the fog cleared from my head. He seemed like a good guy. He didn’t bring up Chase again or try to get in my pants, so he was A+ in my book.
I was as sober as I was going to get, and my words were coming together better as exhaustion tore through me. Jet lag and alcohol are not a good mix when you have a meeting at 7a.m.
“ I need to get going. Thank you for the water and conversation.” I muttered, as I tried to put my coat on. I watched as he texted something on his phone, then he stood and helped me into my coat.
“ Can I walk you somewhere, or get you a cab?” Mark asked.
“ You’re sweet, but I can manage,” I replied, and walked toward the door.
“ Miss Carson, if you need anything while you are here, please don’t hesitate to call,” Mark stated, as he handed me his card. I took it and smiled at him. I didn’t know if he was just being nice, or if this was the code: that the brothers in blue took care of the wives and families after an officer was killed. I didn’t want to know, because I didn’t want to think about it.
I stepped out to see that there was a snow and rain mix falling from the sky. I stepped out into it and, for one fleeting moment, I was home. I stood out and looked up at the night sky as the rain snow mix fell down on my face. I closed my eyes and made a wish on the water: that I would have the courage and strength to love, and recognize love, when and if I ever found it again. I didn’t want to wind up alone pining for a man who was in Heaven.
When I opened my eyes again, I started toward the hotel. I must have missed the curb as I slipped and fell. Mark was behind me in a moment, helping me stand back up.
“ Thank you,” I whispered, turning crimson from embarrassment.
“ Don’t thank me yet. I was merely doing a favor for someone.” Mark nodded above my head.
“ What are you talking about?” I asked, wondering just how drunk I still was.
“ Hello, Candy.” A familiar voice called from behind me and shivers went down my spine. My stomach clenched and my body betrayed me as his voice reverberated through me. I turned around and faced the music of the song I had chosen to write.
“ Hello, Jaxson.”
My voice was barely a whisper as I spoke his name. He looked delectable in a pair of jeans and