sheâd learned she was pregnant, it had seemed essential that she tell Max. She wanted her baby to have a father, yet she should have realised Max was hardly going to jump into the role of daddy with eager ease. They barely knew each other.
And the last thing she wanted was for her baby to have a father who rejected herâ¦like she had been rejected.
âWhat do you want to do?â Max asked eventually, his voice terribly neutral. âSomehow I donât think you need money, but if thatâs what youâre afterââ
Zoe twisted in her seat to glare at him. âIâm not after anything,â she ground out. âSilly me, I thought it might concern you, the fact youâve fathered a child.â
Max turned to the window so she couldnât see his expression. âAre you telling me you intend to keep it?â
Zoe recoiled. âWould you prefer I didnât?â
He shrugged, not speaking, and revulsion crawled through her. When he finally spoke, it was no more than a whisper, and she couldnât be sure sheâd heard him at all. âNo.â
âNo?â
âIâm not asking you to get an abortion if you donât wish to have one,â Max said flatly, his face still turned to the window. âIâm not quite that selfish.â
The limo pulled to the curb in front of Maxâs building and he got out of the car, leaving Zoe no choice but to follow, tripping once more over the uneven cobbles.
They didnât speak in the foyer, or in the closed space ofthe lift as it soared thirty-two floors up into the sky. Zoe waited tensely as Max stalked across his living roomâshoving aside a chair in an almost vicious movementâbefore he poured himself a rather large Scotch and downed it in one gulp.
âIâd offer you a drink but I suppose thatâs not the thing when youâre expecting,â he said, his back to her, his voice dark with a savage humour.
âNo, itâs all wretched herbal teas,â Zoe replied lightly. âIâd kill for a cup of coffee.â
âSurely a little caffeine canât be that bad for you, this early on?â
Zoe shrugged. Sheâd read a brochure that linked excessive caffeine to the threat of a miscarriage, and while the research showed that a cup a day was fine, she realised she didnât want to take unnecessary risks, or even any risks at all.
She wanted this baby. A lot. More than anything sheâd ever wanted before. Perhaps even more than she wanted to be a Balfour. The realisation surprised her, and even scared her a little bit.
âSo.â Max put his glass down carefully on the table and turned slowly to face her. âI appreciate you telling me the news, but what exactly are you hoping to achieve here?â
Zoe swallowed. It was, she knew, a good question. What was she doing here? What did she wantârealistically, possiblyâfrom Max? âI want you to be involved in our childâs life.â The words came out in a nervous rush, and Max arched one eyebrow.
âInvolved?â he repeated, and there was no disguising his incredulity. âWhat are you talking about?â
His blatant disbelief stung her, reminded her of her own biological fatherâs utter refusal to acknowledge her in any way. âIâm talking about responsibility, Maxââ
âThe responsible thing would have been not to get you pregnant in the first place,â Max replied shortly. âBarring that, it would be to give you the moneyââ
âNo.â Zoe took a step closer to him, her hand pressed against her tummy. âAre you really that cold-hearted, that youâd wish your own child out of existence?â
Maxâs face and voice were both expressionless. âI canât really be sure itâs mine, can I?â
âWe can have a paternity test as soon as you like,â Zoe said evenly. âI have nothing to