two-suiter,
& (with passports bluer than their eyes)
pose as barons
in Kitzbühel, or poets in Portofino,
something in us sails
off with them (dreaming of bacon-lettuce-
and-tomato sandwiches).
Oh, all the exiles of the twenties knew
that America
was discovered this way: desperate men,
wearing nostalgia
like a hangover, sailed out, sailed out
in search of passports,
eyes, an ancient kingdom, beyond the absurd
suburbs of the heart.
Dear Anne Sexton, I
On line at the supermarket
waiting for the tally,
the blue numerals
tattooed
on the white skins
of paper,
I read your open book
of folly
and take heart,
poet of my heart.
The poet as housewife!
Keeper of steak & liver,
keeper of keys, locks, razors,
keeper of blood & apples,
of breasts & angels,
Jesus & beautiful women,
keeper also of women
who are not beautiful—
you glide in from Cape Ann
on your winged broomstick—
the housewife’s Pegasus.
You are sweeping the skies clear
of celestial rubbish.
You are placing a child there,
a heart here…
You are singing for your supper.
Dearest wordmother & hunger-teacher,
full professor of courage,
dean of women
in my school of books,
thank you.
I have checked out
pounds of meat & cans of soup.
I walk home laden,
light with writing you.
Dear Anne Sexton, II
My dearest Anne,
I am living by a lake
with a young man
I met one week after you died.
His beard is red,
his eyes flicker like cat’s eyes,
& the amazing plum of his tongue
sweetens my brain.
He is like nobody
since I love him.
His cock sinks deep
in my heart.
♦
I have owed you a letter
for months.
♦
I wanted to chide
the manner of your death
the way I might have once
revised your poem.
You are like nobody
since I love you,
& you are gone.
♦
Can you believe
your death gave birth to me?
Live or die,
you said insistently.
You chose the second
& the first chose me.
I mourned you
& I found him
in one week.
♦
Is love the sugar-coated poison
that gets us in the end?
We spoke of men
as often as of poems.
We tried to legislate away
the need for love—
that backseat fuck
& death caressing you.
♦
Why did you do it
in your mother’s coat?
(I know
but also know
I have to ask.)
Our mothers get us hooked,
then leave us cold,
all full-grown orphans
hungering after love.
♦
You loved a man who spoke
“like greeting cards.”
“He fucks me well
but I can’t talk to him.”
We shared that awful need
to talk in bed.
Love wasn’t love
if we could only speak
in tongues.
♦
& the intensity of unlove
increased
until the motor, the running motor
could no longer power
the driver,
& you, with miles to go,
would rather sleep.
♦
Between the pills, the suicide pills
& our giggly vodkas in the Algonquin…
Between your round granny glasses
& your eyes blue as glaciers…
Between your stark mother-hunger
& your mother courage,
you knew there was only one poem
we all were writing.
♦
No competition.
“The poem belongs to everyone
& God.”
I jumped out of your
suicide car
& into his arms.
Your death was mine.
I ate it
& returned.
♦
Now I sit by a lake
writing to you.
I love a man
who makes my fingers ache.
I type to you
off somewhere in the clouds.
I tap the table
like a spiritualist.
♦
Sex is a part of death;
that much I know.
Your voice was earth,
your eyes were glacier-blue.
Your slender torso
& long-stemmed American legs
drape across
this huge blue western sky.
♦
I want to tell you “Wait,
don’t do it yet.”
Love is the poison, Anne,
but love eats death.
Dearest Man-in-the-Moon,
ever since our lunch of cheese
& moonjuice
on the far side of the sun,
I have walked the craters of New York,
a trail of slime
ribboning between my legs,
a phosphorescent banner
which is tied to you,
a beam of moonlight
focused on your navel,
a silver chain
from which my body dangles,
& my whole torso chiming
like sleighbells in a
To Wed a Wicked Highlander