the blank.
He waited. And waited. âWere you with him, Bell?â
âWho?â
âYou know exactly who Iâm talking about. Say it .â
âIt?â
He stared at me. Yanked his pants on. He grabbed his shirt which heâd placed on top of mine on the chair. âI canât believe you. Have you been seeing him this whole time weâve been separated?â
âSeeing who?â
âYouâre really irritating me, Bell.â
âNo, I havenât been seeing him.â
âWho?â
âWho are you talking about, Jazz?â
âSay his name, woman.â
âWhose name?â
He put his shirt on. Slowly. He looked like he wanted to say something to me, but he swallowed it and probably a massive bitter pill at the same time.
Godâs voice, that small, quiet presence that I knew was Him spoke to me.
Donât let him leave like that .
I needed to stop playing around. His family and best friend said he missed me like crazy. I could let him know I love him.
âJazz, you shouldnât drive when youâve been drinking.â
Punked out again!
âAnd you shouldnât be seeing Rocky after what happened to us.â
Heâd buttoned his shirt and tucked it into his trousers.
âJazz, donât leave like this. Please?â
He glared at me. âIâm out.â
âI havenât been seeing Rocky. I saw him for the first time Wednesday when he invited me to Ezekiel Thunderâs crusade.And I saw him again today. I only went over there because of poor baby Zeekieâs death.â
âIâm supposed to believe that?â
âYou can ask Rocky if you donât believe me.â
âI donât have anything to say to blondilocks.â
âHe didnât know Iâd married you, Jazz, thatâs the truth.â
âAnd you didnât bother to tell him. Not even when I gave you an opportunity to.â
âDo you want to talk about that night?â
Jazz suddenly developed Touretteâs syndrome. Tics and expletives exploded out of him. Most of them having to do with Rocky. I let him rage on until finally I tried again to broach the subject of what we really needed to do.
âWhy donât we talk about it, baby?â
More tics and expletives. And his own twist on my game. âDonât call me baby.â
I crawled out of the bed and covered myself with the quilt. I may have gotten a peek at his tightie whities, but I didnât want him to see how my cup runneth over! But he saw just the same. Jazz actually blushed, pinking his ears and cheeks. He noticed my discomfort and looked away.
And speaking of discomfort. My ankle still buzzed with pain. I hobbled over to my chest of drawers. Jazz noticed I was hurt but didnât say anything.
I slipped on a long-sleeved T-shirt with a tattoo design on the front. Iâd had to get that shirt in large to contain my new girth. When I was dressed, I spoke to him. âI know you arenât ready to deal with it, but when you are, Iâll be here. Iâm sorry I hurt you, Jazz.â
He turned away from me again and stared into the mirror on my dresser. âI hate you, Bell,â he said to his own reflection.
But he didnât leave me.
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I got an idea. Like the Grinch I got a wonderful, awful idea. I knew exactly what to do! If only heâd go for it.
Iâd holed up in the bedroom, and Jazz stayed in the living room, making it much easier for him not to talk to me. I finally eased into the living room, careful not to frighten him in case heâd bite.
He surprised me by speaking first. âYou need to stop walking until your ankle gets better.â
âYou noticed I was hurt.â I sat next to him.
âI always notice when youâre hurt.â He reached down and cradled my ankle in his hands. Placed it across his lap. Nice and cozy. âDo you want some ice?â
âI had quite enough ice when I