any other children in the family?â
Helen shook her head, and her eyes brimmed with tears. âNo,â she replied. âVince and I were talking about having a baby, though.â
âWhere does Vince work?â I was miles behind the police, I knew, but I could still ask his fellow employees what kind of man he was. And it was always possible that Tucker and the others might have missed something.
âHe was between jobs,â Helen said. Her chin jutted out a little way, as though she expected me to denounce Vince Erland as a bum, and she was prepared to defend him.
âHow far between?â I asked.
âHe worked for a furniture company, delivering couches and stuff, until about six months ago,â she said. âThen he got downsized.â
âDo you have any family pictures or albums or anything?â Except for Jesus and the disciples, the paneled walls were bare.
Helen sniffled, got up out of the chair and opened the cabinet under the TV. Brought out several framed school photos of Gillian, along with a couple of thick albums.
âI had to put them away,â she said, referring to the shots of a smiling Gillian, posing against a plain blue background.
âI understand,â I told her.
Gillian began to rock slowly in her little chair.
âItâs the oddest thing, the way that chair moves on its own sometimes,â Helen said.
âProbably a draft,â I answered, unable to look at her.
âProbably,â Helen agreed with a sigh.
I turned to the albums. There werenât a lot of pictures, and most of them were old. In one, a couple in sixties garb stood beaming in front of what looked like the same double-wide we were sitting in.
âMy mom and dad,â Helen explained, her face softening. âThis was their place. It was new back then.â
I swallowed, thinking of my own dead parents. âTheyâre both gone?â
âBoth gone,â Helen confirmed.
I flipped more pages. Helen, growing up. Helen, on horseback, then dressed for a dance, then graduating from high school. Helen, standing with a smarmy-looking guy in a wife-beater shirt and cutoff jeans, holding a baby in her arms.
Benny Pellway looked like the kind of guy who ought to be doing twenty to life in the state pen. I decided to make sure he hadnât escaped. Shortcut: ask Tucker. The police would have checked that first thing.
After that, the snapshots were mostly of Gillian, usually sitting alone on a blanket, clutching a ragged stuffed dog.
âShe always wanted a pet,â Helen said with painful regret. Sheâd been leaning in her recliner so she could see the pictures, too.
Gillian signed a word, and I was pretty sure it was dog.
My throat squeezed shut again. âSheâs here,â I said. I hadnât planned on saying thatâit just came out of my mouth.
âWhat?â Helen asked, blinking.
I figured she was about to throw me out, but it was too late to backtrack. âI can see Gillian,â I said. âSheâs sitting in the little rocking chair by the fireplace.â
Helen turned in that direction. Signed something.
Gillian duplicated the sign eagerly.
I love you.
I hadnât gotten very far in my studies, but I knew that one.
My heart sort of caved in on itself.
Helen got up, walked toward the chair.
Gillian instantly vanished.
What did that mean? I wondered.
I knew Gillian wasnât afraid of Helen Erland. She obviously liked to be with her, wanted very much to get her attention somehow. Maybe just to say goodbye.
âIs she still here?â Helen wondered softly.
âNo,â I said.
Helen, standing in the middle of the living room now, turned to study me narrowly. âAre you some kind of psychic or something?â
âNo.â
âBut you saw my Gillian?â
I nodded. Looked up at the electric Jesus picture and had a sudden, strange urge to plug it in. âYes.â
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Catherine Gilbert Murdock