a chilled bottle of Chablis, and switched the television onlow. It was a 1940s black-and-white movie called
They Stole Hitlerâs Brain
. I didnât want to sit there watching it; and at the same time I didnât want to go to bed either.
At a little after two, however, the bedroom door opened and Jill was standing there pale and puffy-eyed.
âAre you coming to bed?â she asked, in a clogged-up whisper. âYou have work tomorrow.â
I looked at her for a long time with my lips puckered tight. Then I said, âSure,â and stood up, and switched off the television.
In the morning, Jill brought me coffee and left my Swiss muesli out for me, and kissed me on the cheek before she left for the agency, but there were no explanations for what had happened the previous evening. The only words she spoke were, âGood morning,â and, âGoodbye.â
I called, âJill?â but the only response I got was the loft door closing behind her.
I went to the office late and I brooded about it all morning. Around eleven-thirty I telephoned Jillâs secretary and asked if Jill were free for lunch.
âNo, Mr Deacon, Iâm sorry. She had a last-minute appointment.â
âDo you happen to know where?â
âHold on, Iâll check her Filofax. Yes ⦠here it is. One oâclock. No name, Iâm afraid. No address, either. It just says âApt.ââ
âAll right, Louise, thank you.â
I put down the phone and sat for a long time with my hand across my mouth, thinking. My assistant Fred Ruggiero came into my office and stared at me.
âWhatâs the matter? You look like youâre sick.â
âNo, I was thinking. What does the word âaptâ mean to you?â
Fred scratched the back of his neck. âI guess it meanslike âappropriate,â you know. Or âfitting.â Or âsuitable.â You doing a crossword?â
âNo. I donât know. Sheila!â
One of our younger secretaries was bouncing along the corridor in beaded dreadlocks and a shocking-pink blouse. âYes, Mr Deacon?â
I wrote âaptâ on my notepad and showed it to her. âDoes that mean anything to you?â
She grinned. âIs this a trick? If youâd been looking for someplace to rent as long as I have, youâd know what that meant.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âApt. Donât you read the classifieds? Apt equals apartment.â
Apartment. And whenever Jill mentioned âapartmentâ, she meant one apartment in particular. Willeyâs apartment
.
Fred and Sheila stared at me. Fred ventured, âAre you okay? You look kind of glassy if you donât mind my saying so.â
I coughed, and nodded. âI guess I do feel a little logie.â
âHope you havenât stopped a dose of the Sichuan âflu,â Sheila remarked. âMy cousin had it, said it was like being hit by a truck.â
She suddenly realized what she had said. Everybody in the office knew how Robbie had died. âOh, Iâm sorry,â she said. âThat was truly dumb.â But I was too busy thinking about Jill round at Willeyâs apartment to care.
It was still raining; a steady drenching drizzle; but I went out all the same. All right, I told myself, Iâm suspicious. I have no justification; I have no evidence; and most of all I have no moral right. Jill made a solemn promise when she married me; to have and to hold, from this day forth.
A promise was a promise, and it wasnât up to me to police her comings and goings, in order to make sure that she kept it.
Yet here I was, standing on the corner of Central Park South and the Avenue of the Americas, the shoulders of my Burberry dark with rain, waiting for Jill to emerge from her apartment building, so that I could prove that she was cheating on me.
I waited over half an hour. Then, quite suddenly, Jill appeared, in the company of