doing ?â
âTake her.â She thrust the baby at me. âAnd stop calling her it .â
âItâs what youâve been calling her!â
âOnly cos you have. But itâs not right!â
I watched in growing apprehension as Honey bustled about the kitchen.
âIâm going to go back in the other room,â I said.
I took the baby, still crying, and sat stiffly with it in front of the television. I wondered if Honey had gone mad. I wasnât used to her being all bossy and overbearing; she was usually so meek.
When she came back, she was holding a bottle.
âIs that milk?â I said.
âNo, itâs washing-up liquid. What dâyou think?â She took the baby from me and put the bottle to its mouth. Its lips closed over it, greedily. I canât bear this, I thought. This is someone elseâs baby!
In despairing tones, I said, âI didnât think you could give babies ordinary cowsâ milk.â
Honey stayed silent.
âNot tiny babies,â I said.
More silence. Growing desperate I said, âDid you sterilise the bottle? Iâm sure you have to sterilise the bottle!â
âI picked it out the rubbish bin,â said Honey. âAnd I told you, itâs not milk, itâs washing-up liquid.â
Oh, God! Now she was being sarcastic.
I said, âAll right, you donât have to come off your hinges.â
âWell, but honestly! What dâyou take me for? An idiot?â
Humbly, I said I hadnât realised she knew so much about babies. I said, âHow come? Whereâd you learn all this stuff?â
âItâs just something you know,â said Honey.
It wasnât anything I knew, and I had a sister. Not that I could really remember Kirsty as a baby, but Honey didnât have anyone; she was an only child. I looked at her with new respect. This was a side of her Iâd never seen before.
The baby settled once it had had its bottle. Honey took it back to its crib while I went on with my channel hopping. Anxiously, as she came back, Honey said, âHave they shown us yet?â
âNo, itâs too early. They might not even know weâve gone! I canât remember what time Mum and Dad were coming back from my Auntieâs, and your mumâs probably still in a drunken stupor.â
Honey flushed. âShe was asleep.â
I said, âYeah, well. Whatever.â
Honey would never admit that her mum drank too much; she was incredibly loyal. Iâm not sure I would have been, though I suppose you canât really tell until it happens to you. Honey curled up next to me, on the sofa.
âHow long do you think weâll have to stay here?â
âDunno. Until things work out, I guess.â
âWork out how?â
How would I know how? âJustâ¦wait and see what happens.â
âI thought we had a plan!â
âWe had a plan for getting away. After thatââ
âWhat?â
âI donât know. Stop keeping on! Iâve got us here, havenât I?â
âBut what about money?â
âWeâll get some!â
Honey opened her mouth to say âHow?â I knew she was going to say how. I thought, âI shall scream!â
âWeâll get jobs,â I said.
âHow?â said Honey.
Very slowly, I counted up to ten.
âI could get a job,â said Honey. âI donât think you could, at your age.â
The cheek of it! I was far more competent than she was.
âI can always pretend to be older,â I said. âI could pass for sixteen any day! Youâre the one thatâs likely to have difficultiesâ¦trying to buy a childrenâs ticket!â
The minute Iâd said it, I felt mean. After all, she was the one whoâd taken care of the baby.
âLook, just donât worry,â I said. âIâll ask Darcy. Sheâll know!â
I couldnât ask Darcy that night