Death was searching for this final soldier and it would not be denied. A day, no more. The dead might refuse the candle flame but the living could not refuse the dead no matter how much strength they might command. No strength could overcome the strength of death.
He paused. No strength except the strength of stone.
He rose and, with a sudden urgency, passed through the cemeteryâs wrought-iron gates and set out walking, his boots making a soft shush, shush noise in the fine layer of snow upon the ground.
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He walked all morning, barely pausing to register the changes in the world. The memories he carried were not the memories of shops and streets and he could not remember how the world had been before them enough to notice any change. No one remarked upon his presence and for a moment he doubted that he was even really there until he paused before a tavern window and peered in at his reflection with a frown.
He saw a young man, eighteen or nineteen years old, smooth cheeks, hair cut short, but grown out shaggy and uneven beneath his helmetâs rim as if heâd had no time to care for it. Uniform tunic, belt, and trousers wrapped in linen up the calves, boots old but serviceable. Hair, and eyes, and face, and clothes the gray pallor of cold stone and expression: haunted. He shuddered but, as he turned away, he saw the candle flame and, with a new resolve, he set out walking once again.
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He passed by people, young and old, some healthy and some ill, some carrying the memories of sacrifice and pain but none of them the one he sought and so he passed them by and came at last to a long, low building of gray brick painted white. Not a hospital, although it had the sense of one. The entrance door was locked, but as two women exited, chatting amiably together, he slipped inside a hushed and carpeted anteroom. Old men and women sat in wheelchairs, some talking loudly, some calling for a nurse, but most just staring into space, into the past. An old man sitting in a patch of sunlight, a blanket thrown over what once had been his legs, gestured to him.
âAre you Death?â he demanded when he approached him.
âNo.â
The old manâs shoulders sagged. âIâm Clem and Iâm dying. They donât think I know it, but I do. I can see it, that light out there. Can you see it? A single light, like a candle maybe?â Clem waved his hand before his face, then dropped it with a sigh. âCan you see it?â he repeated.
He looked into Clemâs eyes, past the lines of battle, past the fallen, past the blood, and pain, and death, and saw the candle flame and nodded.
âI can see it.â
âI canât reach it.â
âThatâs because your memories wonât let you go. Youâre holding on to them too tightly. Let them go and theyâll let you go.â
Clem gave a snort. âEasier said than done, boy. Iâve got nothing left but memories. My friends are all dead and my legs ache something awful in the night. They keep me up. They keep me remembering. Yeah, yeah, I know theyâre gone,â he snapped. âI lost âem in forty-three, but they still ache.â He jerked the blanket up about his stomach.
âSo why are you here?â he demanded. âYou didnât come for me, not in those clothes, you didnât. You look like a picture of my old dad from the Great War and he died years ago.â
âIâm looking for someone.â
âSomeone?â
âOne of mine.â
Clem snorted. âYou wonât find him. Theyâre all gone. All of them. Most of mine are gone now, too.â
âI will find him. I have to find him.â
âYou wonât. I told you, theyâre all gone. Go look in a cemetery, thatâs where they all are now. Bones, just bones.â Clem fell back, panting slightly. âAll,â he muttered. âAll but me. Iâm tired, boy. Iâm so damn tired, and I miss my