tip. Ridingâthe tip.â
âAnd you have enough hair on your head to clothe a small child!â Lip Cheese yells.
On the drive home, passenger-side windows fogging up with Lip Cheeseâs having to piss, probably, here comes a preview for the movie Why Lip Cheese Will Die in a Life of Priestlike Anger: The Proto-Stachening of Lip Cheese . Which was the joke we made up when Lip Cheese slept over once, and we noticed how movie titles were always âThe [Somethening] of [Some Guyâs Name]â; The Fridgication of William Perry , we said. Which eventually turned into the Proto-Stachening. The Proto-Stachening, right here, of why there is no way Lip Cheese will be able to live a full life:
âHey Nate?â Lip Cheese asks, voice kernel-sized in the dark of the passenger seat.
âWhat.â
âWill you kill me?â
âWait. What?â I say.
âAs in, just, you know, pop me in the head.â
âI have to drop you off inâwhere am I going to get the gun?â
âGuess Necro had the right idea. Might as well light myself on fire,â he says, voice getting knots in its yo-yo string.âLip Cheese the Maverick Jetpants. Gets all the women on a conveyor belt.â
Heâs trying not to sniffle. âThat girl?â I say. âHow she kept rubbing her eye? That story about that van?â
But when you think the earthquake needle is about to settle, Lip Cheese shoves open the passenger door; wind rumbles in off the highway; the car jackhammers into the rumble strip.
âLip Cheese!â I yell over the windquake.
âGonna do it myself,â he yells, seat belt stretching.
âQuit it! Quit it!â I go, slapping his shoulder, grabbing at his shirt. âIâll crash the car!â
He closes the door. I yank the car back into the lane. All quiet.
âIâm just trying to do the practical thing,â he says. âIâm just trying to be practical.â
So to keep him from crying until his tears form people, hereâs what I do. As Buffaloâs early shift wakes up, me and Lip Cheese go to get Gatorades at a Wegmans in Depew or somewhere. The Wegmans building is huge, its red-lit logo turning pink in the sunrise. We walk through the heat blasters in the entranceâs corridor, and inside, itâs bright. Boxes and pallets are in the aisles, and men with tattoos fading under their arm hair maneuver industrial floor sweepers. Def Leppardâs âHysteriaâ sounds like brittle crunch through the speakers in the storeâs ceiling.
Me and Lip Cheese set our Gatorades on the checkout conveyor. When who is in front of us, in line, paying for coffee and a pre-rolled sandwich, but Mindy Fale?
âNate?â she says.
Sheâs put on weight, in a beer-and-chested-up sort of wayâall tits and failure. Her chin juts like a punterâs chin-guard, and under the white semi-see-through sleeve of her work shirt, thereâs a Tasmanian Devil tattoo on her shoulder.
âOh. Hey. Waitâhey!â I already hate myself. Iâm already back in the low-ceiling halls of high school, when Mindy Fale and me got into a mock kickboxing match once, in the hallway, shoehorning each other into pretend headlocks. Iâd listen to her laugh and try to figure out how sheâd sound in bed. I guess she was always okay; she was maybe my eleventh choice for a girlfriend.
âDo you live here?â I say to her.
âNope. Still in Gates! Parents and everything!â she smiles in an angry-chipper kind of way.
âWhy are you all the way in Buffalo?â
She pays for her food, sighs, plants a palm on the bagging area, and leans.
âI was at Fredonia until about November, but itâs stupid, political,â she says. âProfessors know what they want to see, and if you donât do that, well. Now Iâm making the drive to work at USNY Insurance. Buffalo office. Claims!â She makes a stiff