and stroked her hair. âDonât be a ninny. How else would we prove how far youâve come?â
âWhy would we need to?â Mary Bryan said. âIâm serious. Can we please burn it?â
âWe should certainly burn that bathing suit,â Bitsy said. âWretched.â
Keisha stayed serious. âTell Jane the rest.â
Mary Bryanâs cheeks went from red to redder. âOh, letâs not. I mean, god. She probably already hates me.â She turned to me. âYou do, donât you?â
âNo,â I said. âOf course not!â I wanted to hug her. I wanted to go back in time and make the rafting trip go away.
âIf you donât, I will,â Bitsy said.
Mary Bryan looked like she might cry.
âActually, itâs okay,â I offered. âWhatever it is, you donâtââ
âJust get it over with,â Keisha said.
Mary Bryan looped a strand of hair around her finger. âIt was an accident. Iâd had too much to drink.â She drew her knees to her chest. âIâd really rather not â¦â
âShe and Chase had sex on top of a picnic table,â Bitsy said. âLovely, yes?â
I saw it in my mindâMary Bryan, Chase, the picnic tableâand I wished I hadnât.
âWe werenât, like, right out in the middle of everyone,â Mary Bryan said. âIt wasnât like everyone could see.â
I nodded. I gave her my best imitation of a smile.
âIâd had too much to drink, thatâs all. And it was dark. And honestly, I didnât even â¦â
âWe all make mistakes,â Keisha said.
âThatâs right,â Mary Bryan said.
âAnd we learn from those mistakes and become better people,â Bitsy said in a singsong voice. She snorted. âEither that or we get fixed, which is infinitely more effective.â
âHuh?â I said.
âNothing,â Keisha said. She shot Bitsy a look.
âWe
are
going to tell her, arenât we?â Bitsy asked. âSheâs this yearâs lucky winner, after all.â
I knew something was going on between them. Itâs not as ifmy brain passed over it. And itâs not as if I passed over the whole Mary Bryan thing, either. But I latched onto the phrase âthis yearâs lucky winner,â and my blood pulsed faster. I had the brief thought of asking about SandyâHad they heard of her? What did
they
know?âbut I knew I wouldnât. It would complicate things unnecessarily.
Keisha stood up and began collecting Diet Coke cans. âOur decisionâs not final until tomorrow.â She glanced briefly at me. Almost as if she were apologizing, she said, âWe had to meet with you one last time. You understand.â
âSure,â I said. âOkay.â
âSo weâll let you know.â
âGreat. Sounds good.â
I hesitated, then got to my feet and helped clean up. As I was collecting Diet Coke cans, Mary Bryan approached me.
âIâm not that girl anymore,â she said.
âI know,â I said, because I got it. Mary Bryan had changed, and I wanted to, too.
Bitsy took me home, with Mary Bryan and Keisha in tow. We stopped at Steak and Shake for dinner, which surprised me, but I didnât complain. A few other kids from school were there, too. Sukie Karing. Josh Barnett. I tried to act nonchalant, but I was puffed with pride that I was the one entering with Keisha, Mary Bryan, and Bitsy. Sitting at their table. Sharing their conversation.
âDouble cheeseburger, fries, and a Sprite,â Bitsy said when our waitress approached. âNo, strike that. Chocolate shake.â
âWhipped cream?â the waitress asked.
âHell yeah,â Bitsy said. She looked at the rest of us. âWhat? A girlâs got to eat.â
âRight, which is why your fridge is stocked with pita bread and Diet Coke,â Mary Bryan said. I could