bar, nursing a Coke and her indignation.
âHey, Alicia, itâs me,â I said after the beep. âI am so sorry. I donât know whatâs wrong with me, I swear. I fell asleep in the library, can you believe it? Iâm a total loser, I know. So anyway, hope you had a great time. See you tomorrow!â
I still had the taste of french fries in my mouth. It was making me thirsty.
The next day I made a point of getting to my locker way early so that I wouldnât run into Alicia, and I managed to dodge her between classes as well. After French, I met up with the Bitches. Me and Mary Bryan and Keisha and Bitsy. They didnât say anything to me, just, âRight, letâs go.â When we got to Bitsyâs, it was like total déjà -vu. Same empty house, same white sofas. Although this time we had Perrier and soy nuts, so it wasnât completely the same after all.
I sat down on one sofa, and the three of them sat across from me on the other. I twisted my fingers in my lap.
âYou know why youâre here,â Keisha said.
I did, but I wasnât so dumb as to say it out loud.
âWeâre very careful whom we pick to join us,â she said, âand weâre impressed with your qualifications.â She ticked off points. âYouâre a freshman. Thatâs essential, of course. Youâre not in any remedial classes. Your looks meet the minimum requirements.â
âWhich is to say youâre not a dog,â Bitsy said. She winked.
âBut mainly, we like your attitude,â Keisha said. âYou appreciate what we represent, and we know youâll make us proud. Am I right?â
âUm, yeah,â I said.
âBecause weâll be investing an enormous amount of energy in you, Jane. Youâll have to work hard to be worth it.â
I felt silly, but I nodded anyway. âI will. I promise.â
Bitsy leaned forward. âAnd everything we tell you remains secret. Do you understand?â
âOf course.â
She arched her eyebrows. âOnce youâre in, youâre in. Itâs a forever kind of thing, luv. So think about it before you give your answer, because you better be one-hundred-percent sure.â
I gazed at their faces. They all looked so serious. Mary Bryan smiled encouragingly, but she was gripping her Perrier harder than she needed to. For no good reason I thought of cats. Of black magic and girls who were dead. Fear twanged in my stomach, and I had an out-of-body sensation of standing over a pit, about to fall in.
Donât you dare
, I told myself.
Donât you dare wimp out now.
âI want in,â I said. âI want to be a Bitch.â
Time stopped. And when nothing happened, I had a moment of panic.
Is that it?
I thought.
What happens next?
Keisha picked up her backpack from the floor and withdrew a small box. She walked to my sofa and stood in front of me. I stood, too.
âIn that case, we ask you to be one of us,â Keisha said. âDo you accept our invitation?â
Hokey
, whispered a voice inside me, but I embraced it, because hokey was better by far than the other.
âI do.â
âAnd do you swear to keep all our proceedings secret and confidential, or face the consequences?â
âI do.â
She opened the box and took out a key. It was dull with tarnish. She placed it in my palm and folded my fingers over it.
âThis is your key,â she said. She gave me a meaningful look, but I didnât know what the meaning was.
âOkaaay,â I said. I felt its weight and wanted to open my hand and look at it. But I didnât know if I was allowed.
Keishaâs expression softened. âCongratulations.â
For no reason, my eyes filled with tears.
âOh no,â Mary Bryan said, ânow youâre going to get me going, too!â She jumped up and hugged me. âThis is so awesome, Jane! Youâre one of us!â
âFor real?â