Surfacing by Margaret Atwood

killing certain things is all right, food and enemies, fish and mosquitoes; and wasps, when there are too many of them you pour boiling water down their tunnels. “Don’t bother them and they won’t bother you,” our mother would say when they lit on our plates. That was before the house was built, we were living outside in tents. Our father said they went in cycles.
    “Neat eh?” David says to the others; he’s excited, he wants praise. “Ugh,” says Anna, “it’s slimy, I’m not going to eat any of it.” Joe grunts, I wonder if he’s jealous.
    David wants to try for another; it’s like gambling, you only stop if you lose. I don’t remind him I have no more magic frogs; I get out a worm for him and let him hook it on himself.
    He fishes for a while but he’s having no luck. Just as Anna’s beginning to fidget again I hear a whine, motorboat. I listen, it may be going somewhere else, but it rounds a point and becomes a roar, homing in on us, big powerboat, the white water veeing from the bow. The engine cuts and it skids in beside us, its wash rocking us sharply. American flag on the front and another at the back, two irritated-looking businessmen with pug-dog faces and nifty outfits and a thin shabby man from the village, guiding. I see it’s Claude from the motel, he scowls at us, he feels we’re poaching on his preserve.
    “Getting any?” one of the Americans yells, teeth bared, friendly as a shark.
    I say “No” and nudge David with my foot. He’d want to tell, if only to spite them.
    The other American throws his cigar butt over the side. “This don’t look like much of a place,” he says to Claude.
    “Used to be,” Claude says.
    “Next year I’m goin’ to Florida,” the first American says.
    “Reel in,” I say to David. There’s no sense in staying here now. If they catch one they’ll be here all night, if they don’t get anything in fifteen minutes they’ll blast off and scream around the lake in their souped-up boat, deafening the fish. They’re the kind who catch more than they can eat and they’d do it with dynamite if they could get away with it.
    We used to think they were harmless and funny and inept and faintly lovable, like President Eisenhower. We met two of them once on the way to the bass lake, they were carrying their tin motorboat and the motor over the portage so they wouldn’t have to paddle once they were on the inner lake; when we first heard them thrashing along through the underbrush we thought they were bears. Another one turned up with a spinning reel and stepped in our campfire, scorching his new boots; when he tried to cast he sent his plug, a real minnow sealed in transparent plastic, into the bushes on the other side of the bay. We laughed at him behind his back and asked if he was catching squirrels but he didn’t mind, he showed us his automatic firelighter and his cook set with detachable handles and his collapsible armchair. They liked everything collapsible.
    On the way back we hug the shore, avoiding the open lake in case the Americans take it into their heads to zoom past us as close as possible, they sometimes do that for fun, their wake could tip us. But before we’re half the distance they whoosh away into nowhere like Martians in a late movie, and I relax.
    When we get back I’ll hang up the fish and wash the scales and the salty armpit odour off my hands with soap. After that I’ll light the lamp and the fire and make some cocoa. Being here feels right to me for the first time, and I know it’s because we’re leaving tomorrow. My father will have the island to himself; madness is private, I respect that, however he may be living it’s better than an institution. Before we go I’ll burn his drawings, they’re evidence of the wrong sort.
    The sun has set, we slide back through the gradual dusk. Loon voices in the distance; bats flitter past us, dipping over the water-surface, flat calm now, the shore things, white-grey rocks and dead