except that when I go for the front pocket on my pack, itâs already unzipped and my moneyâs gone. It was in there, in a little plastic pouch with a rainbow onitâa birthday gift from Kimmy. It was right there, but now itâs gone!
âHang on a sec,â I say to the woman at the ticket counter. I turn around. Where is Paul? My thoughts speed up again and my hands shake. Where is Paul? Is he still back in the waiting room? How could my money be gone? Did it fall out when I fainted? Did I leave it on the bus? Did somebody take it? Itâs a lot of moneyâmore than two hundred dollarsâand I need itâ we need it, to get out of here!
I need to go back out to where we got off the bus but thereâs a long line of people in the way now, waiting to go through security themselves.
âExcuse me, excuse me,â I say, running past them.
I hear someone mutter, âThereâs a line, girl.â And then the security guard says, âYouâre in a hurry. Ticket?â But I donât have a ticket, obviously, because I donât have any money! And sheâs big and stern-looking and she wears a gun.
âI lost my money,â I say. âI need to get back through here and find my pouch. I . . . I  . . .â
âHow about your last ticket?â she asks.
âMy last ticket?â
âYeah. Your ticket. Your receipt. If you just got off a bus, you must have one. Otherwise, step aside.â For a second I think that maybe I could run past her, but thereâs the big sternness and the gun, and everything in my body instantly stops and sticks, my insides and outsides, everything as heavy as rocks. My feet push off the floor in slow motion, and I step aside. The guard turns to the next person in line, a guy whoâs shaking his head but not looking at me. Nobodyâs looking.
âThe Lord is my light and my salvation,â I whisper, and I swing my backpack aroundâmy heavy-as-rocks backpackâand reach into the front pocket againâthe one where my pouch is supposed to beâand thereâs the crumpled receipt for the ticket from Loomer to Houston, thank you God and all the angels.
âHere!â I say, a little too loudly. âHey! HereâI found it!â
The guard nods and says, âGo on, then,â and I do. I rush past the guard and through the waiting room, looking for a flash of familiar color on the groundâmy money, the rainbow pouchâbut all I see are feet and bags and empty soda bottles. The door to the outside where the buses wait is open. People are coming both in and out, and I bump up against them till I make it through. But there is just a row of identical Greyhounds out here, and I canât tell which one was ours. Maybe ours is gone.Maybe our driver, Magdalena, is gone. I look down. I look back and around and down again.
I back up into the wall of the building and slide down, hard, until Iâm sitting on the dirt-black ground. Iâm back to being heavy as rocks. And from this angle itâs easy to see my pouch, nearly pushed off the concrete platform. Right there, the shiny rainbow! I push up, first to my hands and knees and then to just barely standing, and I rush to the pouch, my pouch, from Kimmy. And itâs empty. The zipper is wide open and the pouch is completely 100 percent empty. The moneyâall the moneyâis really and truly gone.
My eyes sting and blur, but even still, when I look around, out past the buses and through the high metal fence, I see a street sign that reads MAIN STREET . Iâm not even kidding. Main Street. Main Street is supposed to be quaint. And safe. And quiet. Main Street is in Loomer, Texas, which, letâs face it, is where I should be right now.
I sink back down right then and there in the middle of the pavement and drop my head into my hands. Was it those two creepy guys who took the money? The smell of buses seeps through my