God knew what other places.
She yearned to keep him, raise him openly as her son. She wouldnât mind the scandal that would surely ensue, the extra expense, the inevitable work of bringing up a child. But she must not allow herself to think such thoughts, she knew, because Charles would come back and take him away again.
Under the law, she had no rights. On his birth certificate, Marjory Langstreet was listed as his mother.
Some of the starch went out of Sarahâs knees.
She sat down on the edge of the freshly made bed, fighting back tears of hopelessness.
Sheâd been so young and foolishâonly seventeen and far from homeâwhen sheâd given birth to Owen, in an anonymous infirmary room, a decade before. Charles, fifteen years her senior and sophisticated, a friend of her fatherâs, had been her âprotector,â met her at the train when she arrived in the City of Brotherly Love, taken her by carriage to the womenâs college in the rolling green Pennsylvania countryside.
Homesick, regarded as a bumpkin by the other pupils in residence, most of whom had been raised in cities and not crude frontier towns, sheâd quickly become besotted with Charles. Sheâd studied hard at school, majoring in music, but on weekends, he often came to collect her in his elegant carriage. It was all innocent at first; he escorted her to museums, to concerts, to fine restaurants.
And then he took advantage.
He said college was a waste for a woman, and suggested she leave school so they could spend more time together. Heâd set her up in a fancy hotel, persuaded her not to tell her father that sheâd dropped all her classes.
That was when the lying had begun. Sheâd written weekly letters to her parents, describing books she hadnât read, lectures she hadnât attended, field trips she hadnât taken. Someone Charles knew in the college office mailed the missives, and forwarded the replies. Sarah returned the funds her father sent for tuition and textbooks, claiming sheâd won a scholarship. Her grades were forged, with the help of Charlesâs friend, and for a long, blissful time, the deception passed as truth.
Sitting there in Owenâs moonlit room, Sarah blushed. Charles had been right earlier when heâd taunted her about enjoying his attentions in bed. Just sixteen, her body in full flower, sheâd lived for his visits, reveled like some wild creature in his caresses.
Even when she realized, one eventful day, that she was carrying a child, she hadnât worried. Charles would be pleased. He would surely marry her, straight away.
She was awaiting his visit, full of her news, when a grand woman in tailored clothes presented herself at the door of Sarahâs suite. Sheâd been tall, imperious, exuding angry confidence.
âSo this is where Charles is keeping his current mistress,â Marjory Langstreet had said, sweeping past a startled Sarah into the sumptuously furnished suite. âAnd how gracious of him to support you in such style.â
Sarah had stared at the woman. âM-mistress?â sheâd echoed stupidly.
âSurely you understand,â Marjory had said, âthat you are a kept woman? A bird in a gilded cage?â
Sarahâs mouth had fallen open. This was surely some kind of cruel prank. Charles wasnât married. He loved herâhadnât he said so, over and over again? Hadnât he given her jewelry, bought her trinkets and clothes?
âWho are you?â sheâd managed.
Marjory ran a gloved hand along the keyboard of Sarahâs treasured piano. The sound was discordant, and bore no resemblance to music. From there, she proceeded to examine a painted porcelain lamp, a novel bound in Moroccan leather, a delicate Chinese fan with an ivory handleâall gifts from Charles.
âYou really donât know?â she trilled, after several long moments. Then sheâd turned, hands resting
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